Remember me - hemmings [3]

Chapter 1:

Emilees POV:
----6 months later----
"Hey babe how was chemo?" Luke asked pulling me in for a hug and kissing my head softly. I grunted a little and hugged back weakly.
"The norms" I tell him bluntly and harsher than it should of sounded he shuffles backwards a bit and heads to the kitchen without a word or expression. I feel bad.
"Mummy!" Grace shouts running into my arms.
"Hey Gracey" I say smiling and kiss her on the head.
"Did you go to work again today.?" She frowns. me and grace hardly ever spend time together anymore. I can't tell her I'm ill shes to young to understand. I'll tell her in a few weeks time maybe. I hate doing this to her, and Luke. None of us spend time together and it's because of my stupid ass chemo for this stupid ass hole tumour. The doctors say it should shrink but there is no sign of that yet, and that's what scares me the most.

I go to mine and Lukes bedroom and sit on the bed.
"Ugh this sucks" I say angrily with a huff. I have chemo every Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. and they are all from 8:30am till 8:30pm. it's only Wednesday's, Friday's and Sunday's that I get off. only three days with the ones I love most. I've began to shut everyone out...ever since I found out that I had the tumour 6 months ago life has been a roller coaster. I've shut out maisie, cal, ash, mikey, ellie, morgan, troye...even Luke. they all call me and message me but I just choose to ignore them I don't know why I just feel like it's not worth worrying about me.

*knock knock knock*
"Come in" I grunt still sat on the bed staring at the wall. in walks Luke. Great I wonder how this will go down ever since chemo started Ive just been shutting him out and snappy at him.
"Emilee ar-are you ok?" He hesitantly stutters still standing by the bedroom door.
"Yeah" I simply say not even making eye contact with his beautiful deep blue eyes.
"Ok I was just wondering if y-" but I cut him off.
"Luke stop! I'm fine ok! I don't need anything right now just leave me alone!" I shout at him tears beginning to brim in my eyes. I wish I never did that I always do this he doesn't deserve it.
"Ok if that's what you want..." He trails off I hear him almost choke on his breath as the tears begin to fall down his face.
"No luke wait I'm so-" but the door is already closed and he's gone.
I sink down onto the floor, and begin to cry. I curl up on the floor and cry into the soft carpet.
"I'm sorry so so sorry" I whisper through sniffles. I regret everything I just said I should never of put Luke through that he does everything for me and look how I repay him.
Suddenly, little pale pink frill socks with tiny feet in them are standing in front of me. Grace. I didn't even know she came in. I didn't even hear the door. she adjusted her pink wool jumper and sat down next to my curled up body with her toy bunny rabbit on her lap. I didn't untangle myself from my curled up body because Grace was leaning against it.
"Don't cry mummy" she gently whisper kissing my wet cheek and removing my hair out of my face, she taps my nose and smiles.
"I'm sorry baby girl" I whisper sitting up and lifting her onto my lap.i cradle my arms around her and rock her gently.
"Did you see where daddy went?" I asked her. she stared up blankly.
"He was crying and then he walked out the door" she whispered, playing with little strands of hair falling out of my messy bun.
"Oh ok" I say and kiss her head.

I decide to put on mine and Graces favourite song. "hello Brooklyn" by all time low. I rock her back and forth as the song lyrics pour out of my phone speakers.
"I love you Grace and I'm so sorry we never see eachother that much" I say almost crying.
"It's ok mama I love you to" she says kissing my chin. Grace was the only one I hadn't shut out. She wasn't just my daughter, she was my bestfriend. I didn't try to shut them all out but it just happened.
The last line played through the speaker and it related to me on a number of levels.

"Everybody knows there's a party at the end of the world"

Authors note----> there will be more Lucas coming next but I hope your liking it, I don't know if this one will be shorter than the others but oh well don't forget to vote and recommend love you all byeee xxx