Soaring Love

dinner with the spencer's

"so girl's do you have any hobbies thing's you like to do in your spare time?" Jeannie asks us dishing our plates of an Indian looking dish that Richard call's chana. kaya smile's "I'm not sidestepping the question but I was wondering is that vegetarian?" Richard step's in sitting down at the head of the table "why yes it is" he says grabbing the biggest plate and shovelling food into his mouth. kaya beam's silently mouthing "yesssss" I look back to Jeannie "uh yeah I love word fighting and uh wrestling and just any sort of sport" she nod's along listening intently "wow that must take up a lot of your time" "yeah it doe's," I say remembering the hour's upon hour's training with Morfian in calls on the bank's of the crystal lake. "it doe's," I say again .kaya sneezes my hand reassuringly."I like to draw and do hair!oh and I looooove to read although I don't get much time to" Jeannie averts her gaze to kaya "oh that's sound's exactly like my son Kaden" "where is he anyway?" Richard asks Jeannie." he's at Charlie's house for the weekend" "that's right that kid... never know where he's going to be" I laugh lightly. "how old is your son?" Richard smile's proud "he's 17 nice kid you'll probably meet him soon" I look to him curiously "why would we meet him?" Jeannie swat's Richard's arm " well girl's we have two spare bedroom's and since you have nowhere else to go...we were going to offer for you two to stay with us for a little while" my mouth drop's open "really!?" "yeah we could enroll you in school If you wanted and I could take you to get some new clothes" Jeannie and Richard are unlike any fairy I've ever met so blindly trusting and willing to help just because kaya and I were in trouble. I look over to kaya just to see she has a similar expression on her face. then I say"if that wouldn't be too much of a trouble oh my god's really?!"Jeannie grinn's at us "so that's a yes then?" I shoot up from my chair walking over to jeannie wrapping my arm's around her "thank you" I whisper.i don't know why but I trust them they have this feeling of perfect goodness to them that feel's so nice in a world of hate and lie's.it feel's so good I almost forget Morfian and Chris and Jorden I feel almost normal." your welcome honey" she whispers back in my ear. I let her go after a moment and look to kaya who is crying in her chair. jeannie rushes over to her. "oh honey are you ok you don't have to do anything!" kaya smile's through her tear's "no no I'm happy it's just that I-I haven't met people like you before so kind and loving" jeannie sigh's relived. this mean's more to kaya her family was killed infrount of her when she was four. i sit back into my chair.when we are all back seated and in good spirit's jeannie say's "after dinner, I'll take you shopping for some new clothes and sign you up for school"I'm going to be normal.

I swip at the tear falling from my eye's.clutching this little heart around my neck my side slowly engulfing Lilian's.flapping my wing's I fly.i don't know to where but right now I can't think about that.why her? why my Lilian? the only person I have loved in year's?I let her in and you killed her!!! 

I contemplate going to Alzar. getting wasted punch something. but I can't even think about people right now. the idea that this was a nightmare has popped into my head more then once.i'm now just waiting to wake up.

I look over to Jorden.his Hand held in mine. Chris and Alice walking infrount of us discussing where we should go."It could have been you" Jorden frown's starting into my eye's as if  burning me with the intensity of his gaze. "but it wasn't," I say looking at my feet." it was Lilian," I say remembering the bubbly happy girl from the star train." it should have been me" I whisper thinking of Friday flying through the branches of the ceiling of the wedding hall. Jorden tense's."no" he growl's "don't do that to yourself Maggie" I tug my hand out of his "what should I do then my friend is dead!and I'm here walking through these blasted wood's!we left her Jorden the least we could have done was bury her!" I pause "she deserved better" "we had no time.we had to get out of there more archers could have come second" "I know" I mutter under my breath. "look at me Maggie"Jorden tilt's my chin up stopping us both. I notice Chris and Alice have stoped sitting under a huge willow tree."what if I don't want to?" I spit out angrily."are you ok?' he ask's concerned. "no Jorden! Lilian's dead! she's not going to be the last one!...I don't think- I don't think we should be together anymore not with all this going on.it's-it's not the highest priority" a tear stream's down my cheek. my brain is telling me this is the right thing to do but my heart is screaming at me to take it all back."I can't deal with it all right now." I say sadly."Maggie please..." he grab's my arm."no Jorden not now I-I can't"he lets my arm go "so that's it?Maggie this is when I need you most! I still love you!" he look's on the verge of tear's but I know he won't cry. "I just feel like we rushed into this.now's not the time for a relationship" my heart hurt's saying these word's but it's better for me right now isn't it? "fine" he mutter's "I'll walk with Chris.but I want you to know that when you are ready...I'll still be here" I nod a second tear rolling down my cheek."ok then" he say's walking over to Chris. "I'm sorry" I whisper after him. "I will alway's be here I can wait"he say's over his shoulder.

A/N HEH HEH HEH opps?