Soaring Love

whats real?

I stare down at the lines on my arm." how did I get here?" I turn to Chris. "what are you talking about you've been here all night and every night for what was it 43 days?" then how was I with that girl and if it was a dream how do I have the marks. I bite my lip a bad habit I've picked up while in this hellhole. I taste the familiar metallic taste of blood on my lips." mags!? what are you doing!!??" Chris says grabbing my hand." stop!" he says worriedly.blood dribbles onto my chin and drips onto my gray tee shirt."magnolia stop!" I close my eyes focusing only on the pain. tears start to the role from my cheeks.i stop biteing and wipe the blood from my chin. Chris looks absolotly horrified. "how long have you been doing that?" he says firmly.i look down at my hands."whatever I get nervous...or think of him" Chris pulls me close."we've lost everything Chris...we lost clarity and Lilian and Friday and Alice and-and Jorden" my voice cracks on his name."how do you stay so calm how can you do it?" he leans down and kisses my forehead.not in a romantic why but in the way an older brother might console his sister after a really bad break up "what was life like with out you and Alice and Jorden?" I ask remembering my small-town life with my little house that I rent with all my savings.my highschool and for a split second I miss it.but that would have meant never meeting Jorden or Alice or Chris.i remember the first dream I had with Jorden in it...

"magnolia?" a strange voice called to me.i turn in the blackness and I'm blinded it's like I'm staring into the sun.then the light fades and a boy around my age stands across from me golden hair and green eyes.he had smirked and then the dream had ended me waking up to the line in one directions perfect "and if your looking for someone to write your break up songs about baby, i'm perfect baby, were perfect" harry styles sang from my phone.(my ringtone) it was an un none number I picked it up and thats when I found out...my parents had died in a terrible car accident.my aunt offered for me to stay with her and my uncle but I declined due to the fact that my uncle was and alcoholic.

"I've lost everyone" I say for the second time.Chris tilt's my head up so I'm looking into his deep midnight blue eyes "hey you have me and I'm not going anywhere" he pulls me closer. "you can cry Maggie it's onto feel things.you don't have to be strong all the time"he says simply like no one could ever disagree.i let tears spill from my eyes and onto Chris shoulder."I'm sorry" I whisper."he would never blame you" Chris says stroking my back."he loves you even in death" Chris says matter of factly."give yourself a break"he says softly.i lift myself away from Chris's embrace. "but I can't...I killed the girl...talia?" Chris frowns "we can talk about that later because I know it wasn't you" 

so good chapter I guess...now! I've been obsessing with 1D lately heh heh don't judge me!!! so I've been specifically obsessed with harry styles.so all I've listened to In about a week is 

perfect

kiss you

no control

story of my life

drag me down

one thing 

midnight memories and many MANY more!

@-@ <3<3<3 

so yeah OBSESSIONS!!!

love you all!