OUT OF MY MIND
"When you called me after midnight, asking me to pick you up. As if I was waiting, I ran to you. This isn't the first time, why am I doing this? I keep getting dragged around . . ."
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Why was hard to say it back then? I want to broke up with her because I fell out of love, I wasn' t into her anymore but I had a hard time talking this out to her, and at the end I couldn' t say it. Why is it so hard?
Is it because of her smiles that melted away my guilt? Was it because she' s pretty and way too happy that I had a hard time telling her? I think that was it but when she finally noticed my actions and I spoke to her coldly. . . She break up with me.
I thought breaking up with her had made my heart breathe a little bit but no, it actually even harder to breathe like I was trapped in an enclosed space. Until now, I still keep thinking about her, was she okay? Did she eat her meals on time? Was she hurt after I broke up with her? Thoughts just keep swarming around my head.
"Kerv, pinatawag ka na." Lala, my make up artist suddenly called me out and so I lazily stood up then headed to the site.
Whilst walking, seeing a lot of cameramen today had made myself a little more dizzy, I couldn' t focus on my walking stance and it seems the director was staring at me right now.
"Okay ka lang, Kervee? Ba' t ang putla mo?" She then drew closer to me but I instantly moved in another direction.
"Okay lang ako, director. Please don' t worry about me." I lazily waved my hand for her not to worry about me then sat on a nearest bench. We need to shoot today for the teaser on our upcoming drama this early spring.
The director just nodded at me then went back to her usual spot. I moved my head to the left side and saw my leading lady coming towards my direction . Then for a moment, I suddenly saw Hansel walking towards me wearing her usual smile that made my heart thumped fast.
I immediately stood up then approached her. It had been many days since the time we met each other, I' m pretty sure that she also missed me more than I do.
"Kervee . . ." She softly called out my name then I hugged her tightly. Oh my! I missed her natural scent whispering through my nose.
"I miss you so much, Hansel . . ."
"Kervee, si Ashley 'to . . ." Hansel hold both of my cheeks then rubbed with her hands.
"Where have you been? Ilang araw na akong naghihintay sa' yo . . ." I cupped her pretty face.
"Director Sahara, helped me. Namumutla si Kervee!" Hansel tried to straightened my position.
I looked straight to Hansel' s almond eyes then say these words that made my heart gone wild. "Please, don' t leave me. Magwawala ako kung iiwanan mo ako . . ." My sight became blurry until I suddenly passed out.
— The End —
"Why can't I let you go? I don't know, strangely I keep doing this. I keep going back to me, I don't know. Strangely, I keep doing this. Strangely, I keep doing this . . ."
- (Out of My Mind, DAY6)
