HURT ROAD
" How many times a day will my tears swell up? Even though I try to count, I can't because I'm always trying to hold the tears in. . ."
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Fast.
I moved my wheelchair as fast as I could so that I could temporarily ran away from my health problems, sigurado akong magagalit na naman sakin ang dalawang Kuya ko pag nalaman nilang umalis ako sakin kwarto. But I have and need to stay away for a moment para at least hindi ako ma-bored, I just need to breathe for a new fresh air kahit wala naman talagang fresh air dito sa ospital.
Stop.
I suddenly stopped moving my wheelchair when I saw a girl crying silently while covering her face using her hands. She was sitting in the lobby area where there are still some other people who were roaming around the place. Her relative was probably on the ER kaya ganun nalang ginawa niya. . . Ang umiyak. I'm used to see these kinds of scenario from different people everyday. Naging immune narin ako sa mga ganitong klase na sitwasyon.
Drag.
I tried to drag my wheelchair towards her direction kahit medyo overcrowded ang lobby but for a moment I immediately stopped moving when I saw two female doctors approaching her and the latter suddenly stopped sobbing, from what I saw on my vision. Her relative probably survived on the ER. But then again after the doctors left her, ako naman ang natulala sa kanya.
Dumbfounded.
She was left dumbfounded as if she was trying to digest something in her head. Nagmadali akong lapitan siya dahil ilang sandali nalang ay iiyak naman ulit siya, pero napatigil din naman ako nang may bagong dumating na lalaki sabay nilapitan siya at kinausap pero hindi umimik ang babae at nanatiling tulala parin kaya iniwan siya ng lalaki at nagmadaling tinungo ang ER.
Approach.
I moved my wheelchair once again to approach her with tears starting to fall from my eyes. I could feel what she was feeling right now. Nakarating nadin ako sa tabi niya then I softly cover her eyes using my hand, then for a moment I could feel a streak of tears began to drop one by one from her eyes. At doon nagsimula ulit siyang umiyak.
Stay.
I stayed by her side for about half an hour with my hand still covering her eyes. A hand with a face towel suddenly appeared on my sight kaya napaangat ang ulo ko then bumungad sakin ang mukha ng kilala kong nurse, she was actually attending me. The nurse brightly smiled at me and I couldn't helped myself but feel shy on her facial expression. Agad kong kinuha mula sa kanya ang panyo at dahan-dahang inilipat ito sa mukha ng 'di ko kilalang babae. I felt so relieved from the moment I place the towel on her face dahil agad niya itong nahawakan at du'n niya binuhos lahat ng pagdadalamhati sa kamag-anak niya.
Caressed.
I softly caressed her head while she continued to keep on crying then I nicely put the hair strands at the back of her ear in at ease. I subconsciously stopped caressing her head when she suddenly looked at me with her eyes still covered with tears, and the face towel now at her lap. Pareho kaming napatitig sa isa't isa at hindi alintana ang nakapaligid samin.
I wish these kinds of moment would last forever . . .
-- The End --
"You knew and I knew that this is not an easy road, It's not that you and I didn't know that not many flowers bloom on this road . . ."
- (Hurt Road, DAY6)
