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༉‧₊˚✧ narration agad-agad lmao ; lowercase intended !

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it was already past 11. i should be sleeping but something's bothering my mind. kanina pa ako pa-lakad lakad sa labas ng kwarto nila mommy at daddy.

out of nervousness, i was fidgeting with my fingers and biting my lower lips when the door to my parents' room opened, startling the shit out of me.

i don't even know why i'm nervous. kakausapin ko lang din naman ulit sila sa naging desisyon nila para sa akin.

papalipatin sa ibang school? no way.

sounds fun, but it's really not. yes, i will get to meet new set of friends, new learnings, and new environment but still, my previous school is the best.

since elementary palang, sa school life university na ako nag-aaral. i have no problems with it, to be honest, i was really okay — not until my parents started having discussions about me leaving and transferring to another school.

i thought, it was about my grades, i was pretty sure i'm excelling in every one of my subject. but then, they told me na it's about my kuya daw. kung about kay kuya, bakit ngayon lang at hindi pa dati, hindi ba?

it's not really about my brother, but about myself talaga. we have different schedules and stuff, si seonghwa ang nahihirapan mag-hatid sundo sa akin kaya napag-desisyon nila akong ilipat, without telling it to me. ako naman ang mahihirapan if lilipat, right? adjusting to a new environment sucks.

bale, surprise lang talaga nila sa akin 'yon. kasama pa nga si jisung that time, he fully heard our arguments. siya pa lang naman ang nakaka-alam.

"ysa, what's wrong?" mommy asked me softly and i ran towards her, hugging her waist tightly as i let my tears fall. i don't like the idea of transferring, i'll have to leave my friends behind and that shit hurts. "why is my baby crying? hmm?"

she cupped my face and gently wiped the tears away.

i let out a shaky breath before answering, "d-do i really have to t-transfer?" it's hard for me to say the word. ang hirap tanggalin sa isip. my friends... jisung. nagtatampo siya, alam ko.

she pursed her lips before giving me a pity look. i don't like it. it'll cost my life! i will never transfer! pipilitin ko sila hanggang sa pumayag sila sa gusto ko — and that is to stay.

"we don't have a choice, it's what your daddy wanted." she answered. "kahit na gusto ko siyang pigilan, i can't. it's his decision,"

"why do i even have to transfer? i don't have any failing marks, right?" pa-ulit ulit na ako sa sinasabi ko but i don't care, i just wanted to make sure na hindi talaga 'yon ang reason kung bakit nila ako palilipatin.

her lips crack out into a lovely smile, "baby, you're doing great in every subjects. there's nothing wrong..."

nagsimula na namang manginig ang kamay ko. i closed my eyes and stopped myself from sobbing. i'm doing great naman pala, eh. hindi ko na kailangan mag-transfer.

"mommy, please..." i pleaded but to my dismay, she shook her head disapprovingly. "but i can– "

"you're already enrolled at horizon university," a deep voice interrupts me. i turned my head to see daddy sitting straight at their bed with his legs crossed, glaring at me. nagising siya because of my loudness.

"d-daddy– " my voice cracked a little. i'll plead whatever it takes.

"how many times do i have to tell you that you are going to transfer whether you like it or not!" he raised his voice this time, not minding if i flinched or not. "starting tomorrow, you are going to horizon university with your brother and that's final!"

i stood there, frozen. i'm already enrolled. i'm starting tomorrow? w-wala na talaga. sila jisung...

my lips quivered at the thought of my friends. daddy didn't care about me. lahat na lang ay gagawin niya para kay kuya.

hinila na niya si mommy palayo sa akin, but before that, nagawa pa ni mommy i-kiss ang forehead ko. and after, daddy shut the door right in-front of me.

"g-goodnight?" i said, more like a whisper pero mukhang sa sarili ko na lang 'yon sinasabi. hindi naman nila ako maririnig through this door.

i went back to my room. inis akong umupo sa malamig na sahig at umiyak. i cried out all of my frustrations. hindi naman ako kailangan i-hatid sundo ni kuya. wala naman akong sinabi! it was his own will to do so. i never mentioned it to him.

i may look crazy. making tantrums all by myself, but i don't care.

i reached for my phone near me and dialed jisung's number. he's still not sleeping. he's not the type of person to sleep early, lagi 'tong puyat.

but should i call him this late? kahit na gising pa ang tao, i don't want to bother him just because of my problem. and in the end, binaba ko na lang din ang tawag.

paano ko 'to ipapaalam kay jisung? how about sa pinsan ko na lang kaya?

hindi ko alam kung may powers ba siya mag-mind reading pero tumawag na lang siya bigla. bakit naman siya tatawag?

weird, tatawagan ko sana siya pero nung siya na ang tumawag parang ayaw ko na lang sagutin.

author's note !

may pa #askateez ngayon
ah, did y'all ask? random
random lang ako huehue
i miss them sm :(