𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐲 || 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐫

Ch.8

Sebastian was on the other sofa when I woke up in the morning. I grabbed a water and started to think of all the things that had happened the night before.

"Shit." The thought of us kissing popped up into my head.

"You good?" Sebastian got up and walked up to me.

"Yea. Totally." How was I going to tell Jake? Or maybe I just don't tell him.

"Hey uh about the kiss." He looked at me and focused on what he was trying to say. "I don't know if you feel the same, but I don't think I kissed you because I was in pain. I think I genuinely wanted you."
I looked up at him and didn't know what to say.

"Look (y/n) you don't have to give me an answer or anything. I was just saying." I just stayed quiet. "Well I'm going to go shower so yea."
I nodded my head and he just left to upstairs.

I felt light headed, so I laid down on the couch but then the doorbell rang. "Hold up!" I yelled.
I opened the door and saw Jake standing in front of me.

"(Y/n) are you okay?" He hugged me and then came inside.
"What do you mean?" I was so confused.

"I contacted you like a million times and you never answered."

"Oh, sorry I was busy."

"Okay well you wanna hang ou-" Jake heard footsteps coming down the stairs and I did too, but by the time I got up Sebastian was already by the stairs with a towel around his waist and no shirt on.

"Oh hey Jake" He looked at me and smiled. I forgot he didn't know about me and Jake. "Uh (y/n) you got any more of the apricot face scrub?"

"Yea one sec." I got it from the storage closet and gave it to him.

"Thanks." He winked and ran back up the stairs leaving me and Jake by ourselves.

"Why is he here?" Jakes face was serious, his usual smile and calm face was gone.

"He stayed over last night." I wasn't going to lie.

"You know I didn't think you were like this."

"What does that mean Jake?"

"No guy just goes over to a girls house and does nothing. It sucks that you have to be like this. I really like you, I thought it was mutual." He started to walk away.

"Even if I tried to explain to you, you wouldn't understand. Nothing happened" that was a lie. "I really like you too and I wouldn't do that to you." I tried to touch his shoulder but he backed away.

"So I won't understand? But he does? Real smooth. You know what if you don't want anything then let's stop." He raised his voice on the last sentence.

"Stop Jake, I didn't do anything. I want to be with you, but some things Sebastian and I talk about, you just wouldn't understand."

"Then tell me so I can understand please."

"No Jake, just relax." I don't want him to lash out on anyone. I could sense all the anger that was going on in his voice.

"(Y/n) just tell me."

"When I'm ready, maybe I will. But right now I don't like this Jake, I want my Jake back."
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It was only Sunday and I had nothing else to do, so Jake stayed over. Sebastian left after he showered and told me to "think about it" which kind of got Jake upset when I wouldn't tell him what it was.

I wasn't talking to him at all, I had just been laying there for the past hour while he watched some show on Netflix.
"(Y/n) please just talk to me. I'm sorry and I shouldn't have gotten mad. I really appreciate you and I want you so much." He had climbed over to where I was and hugged my waist. I looked down at him but didn't say anything. I wasn't mad at him, I was just thinking about how all this shit just happened on the weekend.

"I'm not mad. Just watch your show." He looked up at me, smiled, and started to plant a million kisses on my face which made me laugh.

"See I love your smile and laugh, let me enjoy that." He kissed me slowly on my lips and I pulled away.
"Okay, but don't get yourself too excited." I kissed him once more and hugged him close to me.

"You know (y/n), I don't think I've felt like this in a while." He smiled at me.
"What do you mean?"

"Happy. Thank you for making me happy." I didn't know what to say.
When we met I was about to die, if I died he wouldn't be happy,

If I died though

I would've been happy.

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•Monday•

I had just gotten off the phone with my mom when Alvaro and Roshaun pulled up to my house to give me a ride. Roshaun was talking the whole way while I stayed quiet in the back listening and Alvaro was texting his now senior girlfriend.

"So Alvaro you haven't said a word." I looked at him but he was still on his phone.

"I don't have anything to say." No one could ever change the way Alvaro was but now I'm actually thinking someone has.

"Okay so how was your weekend?"

"Fine." He was still texting on his phone and he didn't even look up once.
Once we got to school Alvaro walked off without us, "Roshaun spill."

"What do you mean?"

"What's wrong with Alvaro?" He looked at me and put a hand on my shoulder.

"He had too much of a good time with that senior and now he thinks he's the shit."
I didn't say anything else, because I guess we all change. It just sucks it had to be Alvaro.

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"Where's Alvaro anyway? He always sits with us." Roshaun pointed to the table Alvaro was sitting at with his new girlfriend and a group of people surrounding them. It was lunch and I didn't really feel that hungry. Roshaun decided to go play basketball in the court and I decided to go to the library.

"Babe." Jake came up from behind me and gave me a hug when I was looking at some comics. I didn't really give a reaction though.
"Hey what's wrong?" He turned me around with my back against the shelf and looked at me. "What's up? Cmon tell me."

"I'm just tired."

"No you're not. Something is wrong."

"I'm good. I promise." I kissed his cheek and went back to looking at the comics when his friends came around to where we were.

"Ouu looks likes she finally let him bang." One kid said.
"Shut up Derek." Jake smiled at me and then turned back to them.
"Looks like someone is turning soft."

"Dude he told you to shut up just shut up." I heard Sebastian I looked up to where he was and he just smiled at me.

"I'm going to go, just hang out with your friends."

"I'll go with you."

"It's fine Jake." I walked out of the library and went outside to get some sun. I was sitting at a bench when I heard someone sit next to me.

"Hey." It was Oliver, Sebastian's brother.
"Hi."

"You know where Sebastian's at?"

"Inside the library I guess."

"Thanks (y/n)." He got up from the bench.

"Wait how do you know my name?"

"My brother talks about you all the time."

"Oh." He left and  I decided to skip the rest of the day and just head home. I didn't feel like I wanted to be any where else but that bridge.
And It didn't help that every time I thought of the bridge I thought of Sebastian too.
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