𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐲 || 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐫

Ch.9

I was watching some tv when someone knocked on the door. I got up and answered and I saw Sebastian standing there. "Oh hey Seb." I let him come in and he sat in the sofa.

"Why'd you leave?"
I went and sat next to him. "Well I just didn't feel like being there."

"Oh okay. Is it okay if I hang for a bit?" Sebastian was my friend and I didn't care if he stayed for a while. "Sure."
We were watching a show when he paused it and looked at me.

"Uh (y/n)?"

"Yea? Why'd you pause the tv?"

"If I do something you can't be mad, okay?"
I was so confused, "alright I won't."

He got closer to me and smiled before he leaned in to kiss me. The kiss was smooth and he wasn't pushing anything. Our lips were in sync the whole time and he laid me on my back on the sofa. I should've stopped but I didn't want to. I didn't know what to feel anymore.

We continued and he started to kiss down my neck, but this time I didn't feel weird about it. He went back up to my lips and then started to kiss me softly. He smiled when he kissed me once more, " wow you're good." I laughed at his comment and then he started to lift up his shirt.
I got a little nervous but I didn't say anything, we just continued, his lips felt different. They were soft and I felt love in every single thing he did.
He started to put his hands on my waist and then started to lift my shirt. "Is this okay?"
I just nodded and he smiled. We kissed again and then he took my shirt off.

His touch didn't make me anxious and I felt like I wanted him more and more. He pulled away from me and started to unbuckle his pants but I grabbed his hand and started to kiss him again. I wanted him but I was still unsure about how much. I got up from the couch and he grabbed my waist and pulled me close to him while we were standing up. He pecked my lips a couple of times and then kissed me slowly again, but I pulled away.

"Okay Seb." I patted his chest and smiled up at him. While I went, got my shirt, and put it back on, Sebastian came up behind me and hugged me. "You know I haven't felt this way in a while."

"What do you mean?"

"Happy. Thank you" he turned me around and kissed me again and then hugged me.

Shit.

"Look Seb, I know we just did that , but right now I'm still confused about my feelings. Just let me think about it. Please."

He looked at me and nodded, "alright I understand, just know that I will give you my all. I don't know if Jake could do that for you." After that he grabbed his shirt put it on and got his stuff.
"Seb are we cool?"
"I'll always be chill with you." He winked at me, opened my front door, and left.

How did he know about Jake?

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Calling Alvaro...

Ring
Ring
Ring

Sorry the person you are calling is currently unavailable...

Well then. My best friend isn't even replying to me and I need to talk to someone about this.
I decided to skate to Alvaro and Roshaun's house since he didn't pick up, but when I got close to their house I saw Alvaro almost eating his girlfriend while they were making out in his front lawn. I took a different turn into a new street and just kept riding. I decided to walk for a little bit, so I picked up my skateboard and walked over to the only place I had left to go.

The bridge.

I stood next to the ledge and leaned onto the railing. Maybe the only person really there for me was the only person I wish was still alive.

"Hey bro. You good? It's not getting any easier being here. I really want to leave sometimes, do think you could say something to make this less awkward for me?" I just paused and looked at the water below me. "This is stupid." I hit the railing and put my head on it.

"No it's not." I turned around and saw Elijah Lamb. The kid who decided to kick me in the library even though we've know each other since birth. "I like going here too."

I looked at him confused and then looked back down at my shoes.

"You know (y/n), I'm really mean to you sometimes and I'm sorry about that. You were the only person who was there for me when I needed someone and now I'm a bitch to you."

"It's fine Elijah. I know how you guys do things." I looked up and smiled at him. He was the same kid who brought me flowers everyday for months after my brother died and then stopped talking to me. He was the same kid that I really enjoyed being around.

"Ughh. Sometimes I just want to scream."

"Then scream, I'll be here to listen." He looked down at me and then smiled.
After that he yelled the loudest he could've. I didn't know what he was going through but I heard the pain in his voice, so I started yelling with him. Let's just say both of us couldn't talk very good after that.

"Thanks (y/n)."

"No problem." He didn't need to explain why he was thankful because I knew what he meant. He wasn't saying thanks for letting him scream, it was for the fact that I never blamed him when his brother was a part of the same frat house that made my brother miserable.

It wasn't anyone's fault that my brother died.

He just wasn't feeling himself.

And

I'm so close

To being there too.