𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐨𝐲 || 𝐉𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐫

Pt.22

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I woke up that morning feeling sick, like something was going to happen today and that it wasn't going to be good. I went to the restroom and washed my face, but as I looked at myself in the mirror, I felt my stomach churn and then a sharp pain in my chest. I went over to the toilet and started to throw up.

I heard the door open and Sebastian rushed to help me, "Woah woah woah, you good?" He grabbed my hair back and started to rub my back.

"Does it look like I'm okay?" After I said that I threw up more. I got up from the toilet and washed my face again. I brushed my teeth while Sebastian grabbed a small towel from the cabinet. He put cold water on it and held it to forehead.

We went back to the room and I laid down. "Hey, I don't think you should go to school today." Sebastian grabbed his bag and looked back at me.

"yea I don't think so either, call if you need anything." I rolled on my side and closed my eyes. I couldn't really sleep but I was just glad that I wasn't going to go to school.

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I was laying down when I started to get a call from my phone. I got up from the bed and went to see who it was and saw Sebastian and I's picture on my screen, "Hello?"

"(Y/N)! YOU NEED TO HURRY! WE'RE AT THE HOSPITAL!" After that he hung up the phone and I ran to go get changed really quick. I put on a tank top and some shorts and ran downstairs. I grabbed my keys and then raced to my car. I had some slides in the car, so I wore those and sped off to the hospital. I still didn't know what was going on so my hands were shaky, and I couldn't focus that much on the road. I ran three red lights and was surprised that no one had stopped me yet. As I got into the front of the hospital, I saw a bunch of cars waiting for a parking space. It was all full and jammed packed, so I drove to the McDonalds across the road and parked there. I ran across the road and all I heard was a million cars honking at me. I raced inside and saw all the guys sitting there, even Jake.

"WHAT HAPPENED?!"

All the guys just looked at me sadly and then Jackson started crying, then Jake, and Sebastian stood up from his seat and made me sit next to him. "What I am about to say is a shocker to everyone, alright? We didn't know he was like this."

I made a confused face and looked at all the guys, "Wait where's Elijah?", Sebastian looked down and then I got up from my chair. "Where the hell is Elijah?"

"(Y/n) You gotta calm down we're all freaking out right now."

"WHERE IS HE?" They kept telling me to calm down, so I just walked over to the door to go to the different rooms.

"Ma'am you can't go in there." I stared at the lady at the counter where they pick up your information.

"Where is Elijah Lamb? You know? My Bubs, my best friend. He has light brown hair and brown eyes. He likes to go swimming and listening to 4EVER by Clairo. Sometimes he's real stupid but we know he is smarter than all of us combined" I felt tears pouring down my face and my leg started to get weak. "He's 17 years old, but still a sophomore because he didn't pass the final exams. He's the person I go to when I'm tired of everyone's bullshit! Please just tell me where he is!" I felt arms wrap around me and cried even more. Between all this I felt guilt for not helping Elijah out, but I didn't even know what was wrong in the first place. The guys let go of the hug and we sat there waiting for someone to come out of the door and say Elijah was okay. We waited there for five hours and got nothing until Elijah's mom walked out the door. Her face was pale, and she looked like she hadn't slept in days. She sat down next to me and started crying, we tried to help her with anything, but she wouldn't respond to us. We wanted to know what was going on, but you could tell she didn't want to talk about it.

"Sebastian?" I looked over to him and he was brushing back his hair constantly like he always does when he's stressed out and worried.

"Yea what's up?"

"Was Elijah at school today?"

"No."

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Sebastian didn't have anything to wear, so once again I let him borrow my brother's old clothes.

We didn't want to go in the car, so we just walked. All the guys met up with us near Jackson's house and then we walked in silence. I had my skateboard in one hand and a piece of paper in another. We all had a piece of paper in our hand with words none of us will ever see again, but Elijah.

The ceremony ended and we walked to go see the burial.

My Elijah "Bubs" Lamb had killed himself on the bridge.

We put our letters on top of his casket and then I put the thing he loved the most in there too. Cuco's "Songs4u" album. We stepped away and Sebastian held onto my hand tight. But so did Jake. We were all staring as the men lowered him down and I felt the stares of all our classmates who attended, as we cried and held onto the fact that Elijah was gone.

"Let's go (Y/n)."everyone started to leave him there. He was going to be alone, just by himself. I let go of Jake's hand and stared at the grave that now belonged to Elijah.

"I don't want him to be gone."

"None of us do." The guys stood next to me and we all stared stared at Elijah.

This wasn't what we wanted for all of us to be together again.

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I was laying on my couch watching some movies. Everything reminded me of him, even Finding Nemo.

I stared at the bright screen showing me Hazel cry over the fact of the loneliness of Augustus Waters. The an hour later it showed Thomas walking away from Newt and the memories they had.

I cleaned the tears off my face and just stared at the blank screen, making me wonder what I was going to watch next that made think of him. I looked around...and then....BINGO!

I laid back down on the sofa, closed my eyes, smiled, and thought of him.

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"Dreaming of you when I'm alone. Baby don't trip I'm coming home."