Depression Overcoming

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Sometimes someone hurts you so bad, it stops hurting at all. Until something makes you feel again.

And then it all comes back.

Every word, every hurt, every moment. How could you understand where I come from? Even if you ask, even if you listen, you do not really hear or see or feel. You don't remember my story. You haven't walked my path. You haven't seen what I seen. My past defines me. This is who I am. I am unseen. Unheard. Unwanted. That is what I am. If even I am anything.

It seems like the same thing that held me up, pushed me down. Then my world came crashing down. Nothing was how it was suppose to be. And the heavy sadness was in my soul. Deeper and deeper I fell within myself. Trapped in the misery of my life. Lost in the sorrow of my soul. Unable to see the light. Unable to see the dawn. To feel. To hope. To dream. And the darkest days of my life kept coming. The blackness from my soul never stopped. It seemed it was always nighttime of nightmares, and never morning.

And maybe you wonder why. But mostly you try not to think about it. And try to get by and try to survive. And all the other stuff seems like nothing.

Compared to just wanting the most important things come back again. Like wishing you could see your momma smile again. And listen to her sing a song that makes you feel better again. At least get to take care of your baby brother. You know he's gonna be so scared all alone. And who's gonna hold his hand and whisper it's gonna be alright again? And who will whisper it to me....?

I know I'm helpless, dependent, desperate. I've heard plenty of promises. And they all sound the same. Sooner and later they all seem to be empty. The sun comes up every morning. But do you know where? And slowly seasons changed around me. And it seemed this time, that maybe the world will not be pulled against me again. Little buds of hope formed. Slowly attempting to accept this new life. I wish someone would tell me it's gonna be okay. And that one day, maybe I'll feel normal. That I won't always be alone.

Authors note: There is a video of a little girl saying all this. I just wrote it down because of how powerful each phrase meant. I will post the video by this story as soon as I can! The video was about her abusive dad, who later got arrested and her and her little brother had to go to foster homes. She was seperated from him too. Made me cry! But you should really watch it! All credit goes to that video.