⚠️Might be a trigger⚠️
I barged in the room and there she was with the blade in her hand, scars on the skin (replace kiss of the man-i had to) (okay, so no one found out what the song was called, it's called skin by xxxtentacion) It was the first time I see her arm. I realized she always wears long sleeves. She turned around and pulled her sleeve down as fast as she can and threw the blade under her bed.
Y/n:derek, umm I-I was
j-just going to s-sleep
Me:I saw what you were doing......why?
Y/n:it dosent concern you
Me:yes it does, do you want me to call kobe then
She shook her head no
Me:then why are you doing this
Y/n:cause, cause it makes me feel better, I cant stand this pain. I'm so pathetic
I feel like everyone wants me gone
I feel like I'm a worthless
or a waste
Why did I come
I'd be better off dead
Everyone acts like they love me but they don't
They laugh behind my back, they talk behind my back, it's all behind my back
I'm no use
Why was I born...to die
What is my worth
Nothing
Am I a waste
Yes
Am I broken
Yes
Have I tried to be happy
So many times
Cutting is my only source of happiness. The blade, it comforts me
So none of this is pathetic
We all cope with pain differently
So if this is how I cope with my pain then so be it
If I die I die
Nothing can change actions that had me broken
Nothing
I always fake smiles. If I'm ever gonna die, I at least wanna know that the people that done things that hurt me, you might've been the reason if I die. I'm so tired of being misunderstood
I'm so tired of being misspoken
I'm so tired of being laughed at
I'm done
I hate you
I laugh it off but deep down I'm not laughing, I'm hurting
I may seen happy but I'm not
I'm broken and numb
I don't wanna be here anymore
I just can't be here anymore
I can't
I hate it here
I'm done
Me:no, your not worthless nor a waste, your the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I dont want you gone, I love your company. Your beautiful, your so much. Your worth so much, and you arent sad forever, you get through this. It might not feel like it but you WILL get though this. We'll get through it together. Just dont cut or give up. You have a whole life ahead of you. Dont give up right now.
I didn't know what else to say cause she really did seem happy. I hugged her cause I wasnt so sure about what else to do. She was crying into my shoulder.
Me:if you ever feel like ending your life just tell me, if you feel like cutting, just tell me. You wont do any more of that around me. Around me I'll make sure you're safe and happy....okay
She just nodded her head. I knew she was hurting a lot cause she always has people talk bad about her since she has a lot of friends.
Me:Ima go to sleep okay
She just nodded
As I was walking she called my name
Y/n:derek
Me:yeah
Y/n:can you stay
Me:sure, first let's clean your cut and go change your shirt (she had blood on her shirt since she pulled down the sleeve trying to hide it.) We went into the the bathroom, she took off her shirt, couldn't help but look. I grabbed a cloth and placed it on her cuts. I bandaged it and we went back to the room. We layed down, cuddled, and feel asleep.
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A/n:do you guys know what song I was talking about. And as I always say I hope you enjoyed and I love you all
