Playing with Fire (Paseo de Luna Series) #2

Kabanata 10

Kabanata 10

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"Sabihin mo sa kapatid mo, h'wag na nya ako'ng kausapin kahit kailan," Walang reaksyon kong sambit.

Tulala at apektado sa mga nakita, ni hindi ako makapag salita ng ayos. Wala ako sa sarili ng bumalik kami sa tent, my friends are asking me if I'm okay but I wasn't able to talk. I was hurt. That's it. And the thing is, I don't know how to release this emotion. I can't cry co'z i would look stupid. I can't be mad because i feel like, I don't have the rights. Hindi ko alam kung paano aalisin ang bigat sa aking dibdib dahil ako mismo ay hindi alam kung saan nanggagaling ang sakit.

My girl friends are silent, probably because they saw what happened and even though they know that we're not in a relationship, they concluded already. Rixon is watching me, hindi alam kung paano mag iingay gayo'ng nanahimik ang lahat. Nag iwas ako ng tingin ng mag kunot ng noo sa akin si Ivan.

"What happened?" He asked.

Hindi ko rin alam.

Explaining everything is my least priority right now. I don't want to tell the story, ayokong ipaalam sa kanila na nasasaktan ako dahil yung lalaking nilalandi ko ay humalik sa iba. I won't tell them that because..... That's not me. Hindi ako yung tipo ng tao na masasaktan dahil doon. They won't understand.

I gritted my teeth. Tumayo ako mula sa pag kakaupo sa mono blocks, hindi na kinakaya ang tingin nila sa akin na nag hihintay ng eksplenasyon.

"I have to go. Kayo nalang muna dito," Tumayo ako at lumapit sa bag na dala dala ko kanina.

I just want to go home.

"Bakit? Anong h'wag ka ng kausapin? How could i tell him that?" Sumunod sa akin si Ivan. Naramdaman ko ang pag hinto nya sa likod ko.

I zip off my bag before facing him, still with a poker face.

"Just tell him that we're done," Nag iwas ako ng tingin. "I'm done flirting with him,"

I said it half-heartedly. Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang taliwas 'yon sa gusto kong sabihin. My chest gets heavier because of that, i think my heart is against with what i just said.

Nasulyapan ko ang bahagyang pag ka gulat ni Ivan sa sinabi ko. He wasn't able to talk, hindi alam ang isasagot sa aking sinabi. I took that opportunity to leave them, nang sagayon ay hindi na nila ako habulin pa ng mga tanong.

Kuya Mar brought me home. He was waiting on the parking. At kahit na mag isa nalang ako sa sasakyan at wala ng makakakita na nasasaktan ako, hindi ko pa rin magawang umiyak. Gustong gusto ko ng ilabas ang sama ng loob ko but how? I am helpless.

I want to call him a cheater! I felt betrayed and i want to cry everything but who am I to do that?! I'm nothing but a flirt! I was just.... nothing. We're just nothing so how could I blame him?!

I shut my eyes tightly, resting my head on the back of my seat. How the fuck could i point a finger when It's my fault that i fell inlove with him in the middle of my own game?

I sighed. Fell in love? Tangina.

Nang makarating sa bahay ay sinalubong ako ni papa sa sala. I don't know why he's here when it's still early but I don't have energy to ask him that.

"Bakit ang aga mo ata?" Wala akong gana ng humalik sa kanyang pisngi. My father knows me so well that he noticed my problem.

"What's with that face? Anong problema?" Nag aalala nyang sabi.