"Evet canım, iyiyim, iyiyim... It's only sprained, we knew it could happen, I just have to be careful next time, and don't over do it...evet... yaaaaa Ibo merak etme!... I will rest I promise... Tamam, görüşürüz"
Sunday had been a complicated day, and that was even an understatement. My mind was made a complete mess. I had many things to think about... and they all revolved on my decision to take Demir's offer or not. If I didn't I would have to pay a huge fine I didn't have the money for... and if I did I would have to work with a man I was pretty sure I couldn't keep up with his rules.
They were just so strange for me, didn't suit me at all... No one could never get close to anyone, like not share personal information and to no ask about personal information either, to not develop close relationships... that was not me and even if I could put up with it, there was the most important rule of all, the one that said falling in love was not an option, not among colleges at least, because, according to Demir, otherwise the work would be jeopardize... however the more I thought about it the more I thought that his rules had little to do with work and much more to do with him not wanting people close to him in anyway...
That wouldn't have been that bad... at least for a short period of time... but I knew inside of me I wouldn't be able to keep myself from trying to get closer... to him. Since the moment I met him a warm-electrical-weirdness creeped it's way into me... he was so uptight and so cold but something in me just wanted to know more about him. He made me lose my breath with such an easiness I kept wondering what was this power he held over me.
When Vedat came back, that 3rd time to ask me to work with them, I had already been unable to keep Demir out of my mind, so I accepted, thinking that way I could have the chance to figure out what was this feeling inside of me that drew me to him, I just never thought there was a ban on feelings...even less a love ban... and that he'd intended to apply it every time he saw me, whether we were at Artemim, at lunch or at home...
It also didn't help that the more time I got to spend with him the less clear my mind was. I found him in my thoughts most of the time, I would look forward to our talking, our bickering, our laughing; I would look forward to the way sometimes he would look at me... like the night of the Kırmızı party, when he first saw me with my red dress... or even more the moment we danced... being around him turned on my emotions like a rollercoaster, I was excited, I was annoyed, I was happy, I was furious... My emotions ran like crazy every time he was near me. After that, It didn't take me long to realize that what I was feeling for him was attraction.
I knew then that I was screwed, not only because he didn't show any bit of interest in me but also because there was an actual ban, that I had put my signature agreeing with it, that stopped me from liking him.
Going back to work with him, meant putting myself in a position where most likely I was gonna get hurt. Not only because I'd be back to working with a man I liked, the very same one who had created a rule that stopped me from liking him... but also I knew that he would never look at me for as long as this ban existed... not even with his new proposition. I knew deep inside of me, that this love ban between us would never disappear, it didn't matter where we were.... even if I could call him Demir now, I knew I would never be able to call him sevgilim.
I didn't know if I wanted to put myself in a position where pain awaited me or if my heart would be able to take it.... however I also didn't want to pay that fine! I didn't even had that amount of money to begin with! Most of my money was invested in my greenhouse and the new house I had just moved into.
My life had turned into a complete chaos and it was all Demir's fault!
As my mind was a total mess I decided to go to my studio to take some of the stress out, dancing was my best way to come to my senses, to let my mind go and my body be, I was free when I danced and when finally my muscles tired up, I could always find the clarity I was looking for. So at midday I was already in my studio, dressed up in my tights and dancing to the music my heart felt like.
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Fanfiction(AU) His life was his daughter and that was it. In Istanbul, a woman will come to change Demir's life in the most unexpected way and bring his black and white existence into a colorful adventure. Disclaimer This is only a fanfic, I do not own the...
