I think I love you... (5sos)

I don't know it just happened

Ashton and I were kissing for at least 10 minutes, but it wasn't right I pushed him off again and said "You were just making out with my cousin like half an hour ago, how could you do this, don't you like her?" He replied "No it's just fun and games with me and Rubes you know" cheekily, 

"No I don't know what you mean." 

what the hell just happened, why did I kiss him, he got me at my weak point.

"Can you please leave so I can be alone." 

"Fine, why did you kill the mood, you ruined it" he muttered angrily

"I killled the mood?, I just don't want to make stupid decisions on my first day here."

"A stupid decision, I could never be a stupid decision baby." Ashton said seriously

"Just go!"

Ashton finally left, what am I doing, now I get what she meant about him being "a horny little shit".

I just laid on my bed and stared at the blank walls and just started to ball my eyes out.

Why am I so stupid I kissed him, im leading him on...

Ashtons P.O.V.

I walked out of Rubi's apartement and I guess now Kendalls apartment too. I drove to Lukes house, it was about a 5 minute drive as he only lived around the corner. I was thinking about what had just happened and the words that Kendall said just kept replaying in my head 'Don't you like her' I told Kendall I didnt but of coarse I liked Rubi I have for about 6 months now maybe even longer, before I knew it I was pulling into Lukes driveway.

"Hey Ashy" Rubi giggled. I just smiled at her

"Whats wrong babey" She said grabbing me and pulling me towards her

"I-I-I umm I " I stuttered but I stopped talking I didnt know if I should tell them or not. They were my best friends I had to tell them, me and Luke are always hooking up with people so its no different, but this time it was, it was different. Kendall was Rubi's cousin and I had feelings for Rubi it was all different.

"Ash?" Luke said as he poked me and he regained my attention

"I umm I ki-kissed her" I finally said 

Rubi just sat there ang laughed "No you didn't" 

I just stayed quiet and I could feel the tears forming in my eyes, I know me and Rubi werent even a thing yet but we were always together always kissing and everyone thought we were dating so I guess I felt like I was cheating on her.

"R" Luke said 

"WHAt!" She snapped, Luke flinched I think he was shocked at how angry she was. "Im sorry Luke what wrong?" she chocked out 

"Come 'ere stop crying babey its fine" Luke said as he sat down beside Rubi and wrapped his arms around her. I could hear Rubi sobbing and it made my heartbreak 

Seeing Luke hugging her and comforting her made me sick, that should be me holding her and telling her everything will be okay, but then again she wouldnt be in Lukes arms right now if it werent for me. I needed to get out of the house and away from them or I honestly think Im going to punch Luke kissing her forehead, why would he even do that? I understand he's comforting her but he didn't need to do that did he?

"Ash" I heard Rubi choke out as I turned to leave the room

"Yeah?" I questioned

"Come here please" she said as she turned to look back at Luke.