I think I love you... (5sos)

I had sex wih Ashton?

Kendall's P.O.V

I really hope Luke and Rubi dont do anything, I would be so angry well upset if they did, I really liked Luke but I hated him at the same time. "Ashton stop I cant do this" I said as I pushed him off me. I stood up and found my dress and pulled it back over my head as I walked out the door. The music was still so loud but I didnt really care right now, I took a few deep breaths and walked down stairs and started to drink anything I could find. After about half an hour I found myself walking into a room and luckily it was Calum and Michaels, I walked over to the bed and collapsed but instead of falling onto the bed I fell onto the floor

When I woke up I had a cold cloth over my head, I looked aaround the room and noticed that Luke, Rubi, Ashton, Michael and Calum were in the room.

"What happened?" I asked as I sat up

"You fell over and hit your head when you came in last nigth and you kinda blacked out so I put you into bed" Michael said

"Well since your awake now what happened with you and Ashton last night?" Rubi asked

"Um ask Ashton" I said putting my hand on my forehead because I had such a bad migrain, my head just dropped back onto my pillow and I stared at the ceiling.

"I swear if you had sex with him I could" she started but got cut off by Michael "Hey you had sex with Luke twice well probably more but she isn't saying anything so shut up"

"I had sex with Ashton?" I asked, lifting my head to look at Rubi.

"We dont know use were both to drunk to remember" Rubi scoffs

"But when we walked in you were pretty close to his penis and he didn't have a top on and you were well in your bra and undies" he said with no emotion really

"Penis when?" I asked

"Ash why dont you pull your top up" Rubi said

As Ashton pulled his top up I started to blush when I saw all the hickeys I left trailing down his body and neck, I should probably check to see if I have any later. It was a good night I must admit, but I still dont remember having sex with Ashton

"Are you fucking blushing?" Luke asks

"You so had sex with him" Rubi said

Ashton laughed

"Hey just because he has a few hickeys doesnt mean we had sex" I said

"Yes! How the fuck dont you remember who you lost your virginity too!" Rubi yelled "You know I like Ash!" she kept screaming

"And you had sex with Luke more then once and you know I like hi-" I cut myself off when I realised I was telling them that I liked Luke, I blushed so much

"You like Luke?" Michael asked. Shit all boys are still in the room, including luke

"No" I quickley replied

I tried to stand up and walk but I still had no energy from my stupid hangover so I just collapsed to the floor. Ashton ran over and tried to help me up.

"Dont touch me" I choked out trying to hold tears back

"Im just trying to help you come on" He said as he grabbed me again

"Im fine just stop please" I said

"Ashton she said shes fine just stop" Luke said

"Shes clearly not she just fell to the floor and she cant even stand up are you just gonna leave her here on the floor?" Ashton said more as a question

"No I'll hep her" Luke said as he stood up

"Actually I dont really want any of use touching her right now so both of use get out" Rubi snapped

"What the fuck Rubi dont tell them what to do" I said

"Okay for starters you just lost your virginity to Ashton and your telling him not to touch you and I hate him as much as you probably do right now so im sticking up for you and secondly im not letting Luke touch you because now that you lost your virginity he'll take you back to his room promise to never leave or hurt you and then have sex with you and you'll wake up and he'll be gone so im stopping you from getting hurt" She said

"Guys just leave" Michael said

"Ill just help her up" Luke said as he walked over to me

"What ever" Rubi mummbled

Luke picked me up and placed me on the bed and whispered "Get better I'll see you downstairs when you wake up"

Rubi's P.O.V

"I cant believe she had sex with him" I mumbled as Luke and Ashton left the room

"It'll be okay" Calum said pulling me into a hug

"No it wont be Cal I really really like him, no one understands my feelings for him" I choked out

"Hey Rubi calm down please just calm down" Calum spoke softly

"Im sorry" I whispered

"No its fine" Calum said, as he did the door swung open and it revealed Ashton of course

"Rubi we needa talk" He said as he walked towards me. I didnt answer him, I was really mad at him but I loved him I knew we'd get through it, Woah wait love? do I love him? I think I do. As he got closer he must of realised I was crying "Oh my god baby please dont cry please stop please" He said as he pulled me out of Calums arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck "Im so sorry I had sex with Luke I dont even know why I did, I was just scared and I was helping him out" I whispered into his ear "What were you scared about he asked not breaking our hug "Well I was scared to lose my virginity to you because your so experienced I didnt think i'd be good enough for you and he thought he liked Kendall but he didnt want to he just wanted to be his normal 'player' self so to get over her he had to have sex with someone and I was there and wiling to help out so that if I ever had sex with you at least you werent taking my virginity' I sighed

"Its okay its fine and baby your always good enough for me your perfect in my eyes dont ever think anything less okay" he said

"Okay" I said pulling away from our hug

"And I remebered last night, I didnt have sex with her, we almost did but we didnt" he said

I didnt say anything I just kissed him I think he was shocked at first I pulled out of the kiss and thought for a second. I love him, I know I do, but do I tell him.

"Ashton" I said

"Yeah?" he asked

"I-II think I love you" I stuttered

"I know I love you' He said with a massive smile on is face