JENNIE'S POV.
"alright. thank you so much. please try your best to find my sister. thank you, officer." taehyung said and ended the call.
"still no news?" he looked at me worried and shook his head.
he sat beside me and held my hand. "but they are trying their best love, it's going to be alright." he smiled.
i looked at him for a few seconds and scoffed. i feel my eyes watering again after crying for hours last night. i recoiled from his touch.
"everything is going to be alright? she's been missing for two months now, taehyung! aren't you worried? that's your own sister for God's sake!" i blurted out.
his eyes became stern and he gritted his teeth. "ofcourse i am worried, jennie. she's my sister and i care about her. don't act like that." his voice became deep. he's angry.
and i don't care. i'm done with this bullshit.
i stood up and laughed mockingly and his eyes looked like he was ready to kill me.
"really, taehyung? you care about her?"
"ofcourse i do, jennie!" he raised his voice.
i'm trying to hold myself together. i'm not gonna break down infront of him.
"oh really? then why would you take me away from her? when you knew that we are together, why did you steal me away from her? huh? is that how you care for your sister, taehyung? by hurting her?"
i was shaking.
he slowly shook his head and closed his fists, his knuckles turning white.
then he smirked.
"why did you agree then?"
"because you fucking threatened me! you said that you will ruin her fucking life if i didn't say yes! and you fucking know i don't want that to happen! i hurted her to save her. and now she's missing because of you, you fucker!" the tears slowly cascaded down my cheeks.
my face is red. i want to punch that fucking smirk out of his face. no jennie, don't cry.
he laughed. he sounded like the devil.
"she knew that i wanted you. she stole you away from me jennie! but you know who you really belong to jennie? mine, jennie kim. mine only."
i held my chest. it hurts.
i don't want to cry. but tears started streaming down my face. i don't want him like this. i don't want to fight back. he will kill me.
i hung my head and sobbed. "you're right. i'm yours, taehyung. i'm sorry."
i felt him pat my shoulder and squeezed it a bit. "that's my girl." he kissed the top of my head.
"now let's sleep. and please don't cry, i don't want to see you cry. i love you so much." he held me in his arms and kissed my lips.
his voice is soft. polar opposite of what he sounded like earlier.
tears are falling down my face. my chest hurting. and my heart wanting lisa to be the one holding me inside of her arms right now.
where are you my love?
*
i shot my eyes open and sat upright.
"lisa?" tears are falling down my face. i looked around and saw taehyung sleeping heavily.
i saw her in my dream.
i cried as i tried to remember where i saw her.
she's on a cliff. the cliff that's near the church. she's waving at me. her clothes are from the wedding day. the day she went missing. she was smiling brightly at me while her face shined as tears fall down her cheeks. her eyes are full of sadness. she mouthed the words "i love you, forever." she turned her back at me. then she jumped.
my eyes widened. my hands on my mouth, trying to suppress my sobs.
i got out of bed, as quietly as i can. trying not to wake taehyung up, and i drove to the cliff.
my heart hurts so bad. the dream playing on replay in my head.
i got to the cliff and was welcomed by the chilly midnight air. the stars are beautiful and the moon is bright.
my tears are still falling, and i don't know if i can ever stop crying after that dream. that's not real right? it was just a dream.
but why does it hurt so much? it's like there's knives in my chest. it felt real.
i closed my eyes. "lisa?" i called her name. the wind blew.
my eyes hurt from crying. "where are you?" i shouted.
then i felt warmness on my chest. the wind is cold but my chest feels warm. tears started to fall even more. this is what lisa does when i feel sad. she places her hand on top of my chest, where my heart is. it's her way of reassuring me that she is by my side. no matter what happens.
my knees fell to the ground.
"why, love? why?" i cried. and cried.
does this mean that dream is real? she jumped off of this cliff? because of me? because i chose taehyung over her?
i shook my head and stood up, my feet inches from the edge.
"why did you do that, lisa? i do not love taehyung. he forced me, love. i'm so sorry," i was clutching my chest tightly, missing her touch. "i'm very sorry, my love. why did you do that?"
i was screaming. no one hears me. it was so quiet that all i could hear was my heart breaking. over and over again.
"lisa, i'm so sorry. i'm sorry my lili. i love you so much. i am sorry for all the pain i caused you. i don't want him to ruin your life, that's why i did it." i acted like lisa was infront of me. like i was talking to her. fuck, my heart hurts.
"i'm sorry, my love. i didn't choose him over you. you know that i will always choose you, over anything."
i looked up the sky.
"and i will always choose you, lisa."
i stepped closer to the edge.
"i love you, forever and always."
i felt the wind again. all of the pain will be over now, my love.
i smiled, then i jumped.
(a/n)
bye, my eyes hurt. lol 😭
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