Balance - Tss Au

Sit back relax, Sit back relapse

Thinking about Remy singing Godzilla by Kesha while thinking about Remus and Janus singing 'finding you'....This is fine, why am I crying. Also Remus singing 'Kinky' bc poly anthem. Stan Kesha.

Tw: Mentioned past self harm, eating disorder(buli), purging, cigarette mention, death mention

It was the first therapy session since the group had gotten back from the skii trip.

So far it had been light hearted and they'd mostly talked about what they'd done during the trip and the therapist had wondered how those of them who had contact with dieticians were doing.

Roman was doing good. On his latest meeting and weight-in the dietician had told him he was at the line between being underweight or being at a normal weight. It meant he would start going to her once every 3 months instead of once every month. Logan had sewn weights into his underwear for the weight-in and lied about his daily calorie intake so they wouldn't tube him.
Remus had been deemed recovered enough to not have a dietician anymore though he still had regular check ups at the doctor to make sure he didn't purge, that his teeth were getting better and that his lungs and other organs were healing from the stomach acid and wasn't being filled with blood anymore.

Suddenly Picani got the look in his eyes he had whenever he was about to say something serious.

"Ok so how about this. You all say the reason you think the eating disorder started. See it like a challenge, like when Rapunsel finally escaped the tower and gained some clarity about her situation" Picani suggested.

The room went completely silent.

"None of you have to share anything you don't want to. For example a staggering procent of eating disorder patients have gone through some form of child-s*xual-abuse and it's understandable if no one wants to share that or whatever else you're not comfortable with.....So would anyone like to start?"

Patton hesitantly took up his hand "I guess I can start...I mean it's not that hard to figure out. I was bullied at school and I knew that if i came out to my parents they would kick me out. Food made me happy so I just kept eating it. The more depressed I was the more I ate....and now I'm here"

"I'm sorry to hear that" Picani quickly scribbled something down in his notebook "Anyone else?"

"I think it might have been my parents" Roman sighed "Great, that makes me sound like a whiny teenager. But...they were really strict and had all these rules-"

"Hah! Those puny rules never stopped me!" Remus said trumphantly while grinning.

"Yeah well you also got yelled at a lot more. I mean if I dressed wrong or did anything or hung out with someone they didn't like they would yell at me. I guess I felt like the only thing I could control was food until eventually it turned into ana"

"Mr.Prince if you wouldn't mind I'd like to have a lil chat with you afterwards since that seems like some serious childhood trauma" Picani suggested to which the prince nodded.

"My turn!" Remus exclaimed. His tone never seemed to be right for these situations "I blame it all on genetics! I've read that if one twin has an ed the other twin has a 50% chance to have one as well!"

"While that is true a lot of people who are genetically prone to have an ed never get one. Usually it takes some sort of trigger....like when Aang enters the avatar state. Something has to happen so that he transforms"

Remus thought while swinging from side to side in his chair "Okay so maybe all the yelling and loneliness and getting beat up by my classmates kinda got to me but it's not like I could take away my diagnosis or Intrusive thought or my personality so I thought that since Roman was thin and had friends-"