Balance - Tss Au

The day the world ended

Tw: Eating disorder(BED), binging, throwing up

Patton had a big giddy grin on his lips. Lev, his wonderful boyfriend of 8 months now had taken him out on a surprise dinner at a quite fancy italian resturant.

The were sitting around a small table with a nice red cloth and lit candles on it. They'd ordered garlic bread as a starter and then Patton had taken a meatball pizza while Levi took some sort of weird pinapple pasta.

"I saw in the newspaper that there's a carnival coming to town soon!!" Patton exclaimed "We can go there right?? OoooOOOOooHhhh we can ride the boat of loooooove"

Pat hid his mouth behind his hand while giggling. lev looked down into the table, his lips were pressed together into a thin line and his eyes were small and filled with stress.

"Love....I think I have to tell you something" Lev said it slowly as if he was searching for the right words to use while saying it.

"Uhu?"

"Soooo you know my friend Brendon right?"

"The one with the cute puppy! And big forhead! Ah are you wondering if he can come with? Of course he can! Then I can bring one of my kiddos!! Maybe Virgil or" He began to ramble about his kiddos since he loved them all so much once he got started he had a hard time stopping.

Lev leaned his chin on his hand and looked at him with a relaxed smile while his eyes still had a melancholic look in them. He wished he could hear Pat talk about his kiddos and cookie recipes and cute cartoons forever. He wished that same smile would stay on Patton's lips forever.

"It's cute how you talk about them as if they actually were your kiddos" Lev chuckled out.

"Well....." Patton fiddled with the red cloth on the table "Most of my kiddos, like all of them expect 1 don't have a good relationship with their real dad... So I'm kinda I dunno trying to let them actually have a good dad. Whenever one of them talks to me about something you'd usually talk to a dad about like I dunno emotional problems or how to change a tire I just get so happy because it feels like I'm actually making their life better just by being there"

"Honey you are the sweetest ever. I love you"

"I love you too!!" Patton leaned forward and kissed him "So I think if you bring Brendon I can ask Roman to come with. I think he'd like a carnival"

"Well actually" Lev began and now he knew there was no turning back "Me and Brendon...we've....we've been dating for 2 months"

Patton stopped in the middle of a motion out of pure shock. His brain tried to make sense of how they could have been dating for 2 months if he and Lev had been together for 8 months.

"I don't want to call it cheating" Lev continued "Since I really do love both of you. It's just....Brendon makes me feel so...so....good. It's just a whole other thing than what we have"

It felt like Patton's entire world was being torn apart like a house falling over in a hurricane. All the times Lev had been busy with something and not had time to meet Patton, had he been with Brendon instead? When they kissed had Lev imagined Brendon instead? When they'd talked had it been boring? Had he wished to be with Brendon instead?

"We can still be friends right?"

Patton looked up. He noticed the way Lev looked happier than he'd looked...in ever. It was so obvious Brendon was making him happier. Who was Patton to take that away. Especially when he loved him so much all he wanted was for him to be happy.

"Of course" Patton replied with a fake smile.

He stood up and gave his now ex-boyfriend a big bear hug. He leaned close to rub Lev's smell into his clothes, to remember how being with him felt, to get one last look at all the smallest details of him when they were still this close.