kim suyeon
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the bell rang , indicating the school's session ended. as hyeri and i bid goodbye , i make my way to renjun's class.
"yo." he said as he saw me.
"why do you want to see me?" i asked , straight to the point.
"to walk together." he replied as he smiled.
"suddenly?"
"it's not sudden , we are together remember?" he said as he grabbed my wrist.
how do i react to this?
"can you ask me first , this is kinda burdensome." i said as i pulled my hand from his grip.
"oh my mistake , i'm sorry for that." he said.
"let's go , i can't wait to be home." i said as i walked ahead.
not going to lie , i do feel uncomfortable whenever he does something like this. this is so awkward , gosh i just want to be home.
his actions got me thinking whether he's serious or not. however , i already knew the answer. he will never be serious.
i never experience something called love before. not even having a crush on someone. but why , why everything he does give me butterflies? i shouldn't be fluttered with those. because he's not sincere. i might be inexperienced but i'm not naive. i know for sure , i shouldn't fall for someone like him.
"what are you thinking about?" he asked.
"huh? nothing." i said as i avoided eye contact.
"can you stop being so distant? i'm trying to be friendly." he said as he crossed his arms.
"am i being distant? sorry for that. you see, i'm socially awkward." i said as i looked at him.
we suddenly heard a thunder. both of us looked up to the sky.
"let's hurry up. i don't think i want to get soaked in the rain." i said as i started to walk again.
i looked beside me and there's no renjun. i looked back. he's standing still.
"renjun? what are you doing? let's go." i said , trying to catch his attention. he still not giving any response.
"renjun?"
"i'm scared. i dislike thunder. thunder indicates rain will come soon. i hate rain." he stated , still looking up.
"so that's why..-" the rain poured down as i started to call him.
he ran up to me and hugged me. i'm bewildered. what the heck is happening now?
"i-i'm scared." he stuttered.
this is genuine. he really hate this.
"calm down , let's find a shelter." i said as i took his hand and run.
i spotted a bus stop near our school and we stopped there.
he looked down. he looks so scared and he's so tiny. why this is breaking my heart in some way?
i rummaged through my backpack , looking for my umbrella.
"you see , i have an umbrella here. are you okay if we keep walking with this?" i asked , looking at him.
he slowly nodded.
i opened the yellow umbrella.
"let's go." i said as i offered my hand.
he holds my hand as he slowly stand up.
we both get under the umbrella but this umbrella is smaller than i thought. our shoulders touched each other.
we both started walking. none of us is saying anything , appreciating the silence and the rain sounds.
is it because we are too close that i can hear his breathing? i hate to say this but it does reach my heart. i feel relaxed hearing it.
"i hate it that you need to see me at my miserable moment." he started talking as he faced me.
i look at him.
"what are you talking about? you are not miserable." i said , reassuring him.
"t-thank you , suyeon. i owe you one." he said as he looked into my eyes.
i was taken aback. his eyes is so clear.
this is not what i expected from huang renjun that i heard from others.
"i can see my reflection in your eyes , since we are this close. your eyes are pretty." he chuckled as he let out a small smile before looking down again.
his remarks caught me off guard. he doesn't sound flirty or whatever , he sounded genuine and pure. it was an innocent remarks. it was so pure that my heart skipped a beat. i never feel something like this before.
as much as i hate to admit this , i hope we can stay in this state longer. all of my eagerness to be home melted just like that. right now , i just want to stare at him. i felt some kind of easiness when i'm with him like this. am i facing the same huang renjun that everyone talked about?
"stop staring at me , i'm sure i look awful right now." he spoke up.
no , you looked perfect. i meant it.
"what do you mean by awful? you look good." i said , still staring at his face.
how did that sentence came out from my mouth? i looked away.
"oh? that was genuine." he said.
i looked at him again , oh gosh kim suyeon you can't stop looking at him don't you?
"genuine?" i asked , confused why would he say that.
"people always complimented my appearance but they're not genuine with their words. they're not adoring my appearance but they're enjoying my appearance , as if i'm some kind of show." he said , never in my wildest dream i expect renjun to let out this kind of words. i thought he's enjoying his fame. i guess rain affected him a little too much.
"i like that kind of compliment better." he added.
i'm pretty sure i didn't give him any compliment , i just said he looks good when he said he looks awful which is not the case. he looks good, no. he looks amazing. his hair is little wet due of the rain but he looks amazing.
was that a compliment?
"how'd you know it was genuine?" i asked him.
"the way you looking at me is different. i can feel it. your eyes soften as you stare at me."
i was taken aback when he said that. more than anything , he's staring at me now. i think my heart is going to stop.
"ha , what are you talking about. i'm not." i said as i let out an awkward laugh before i avoided his eyes.
"up to you , whatever you're going to say. i'm going to believe what i believe." he said as he let out a small smile and looked down.
oh god , please let this be sincere and not just him trying to make me fall for him for his plan. what jaemin and hyeri sounded like a lie now. i wish they were lying. i desperately wish for that , at this moment.
i would fall for this renjun and i'm not lying. and i believe , every time it's raining , i'm going to think about him.
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i posted again today because i can't wait to let people read this chapter because i love it haha inspired by love song by nct 127 ;)
