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It was not cold that day, I was trying to walk without looking at him but I was trying to pay attention to every strange move by Nathan, and as he was trying to talk about something he suddenly said: It was Natasha telling me to call her if we got to the apartment,' The silence was floating between us and it was clear that he wanted to talk, but there was nothing to talk about, the distance became long to reach the apartment, and as soon as I saw the door of the apartment, I suddenly said: Thank you, good night.' He grabbed my arm and said," I can help you anytime you want, Don't hesitate to ask for help." I looked at him and went without talking about anything else, I thought that whenever I uttered a word, I would stay in front of the apartment door for a long time because I knew that he always wanted to speak, I saw him turning around and saying, "Yes, yes, I brought her home, It's okay don't worry, When are you going back home?" I entered the apartment on the fourth floor and sat on the sofa trying to contact my family but no one answered the phone, I felt anxious all day long, I needed someone’s help with homework but everyone was out, it became difficult to sit in this place day after day, I started to feel that  Everyone is just puppets and I am the only person among them, no one feels the way I feel, Suddenly, she opened the door of the house. It was Natasha, She sat next to me, looking at me for a few seconds, and then she said: What's wrong? Is there something wrong?' I lay on the sofa and said: I don't know, I feel that everything is cold like snow, everyone never feels what I feel, I have no friends every time I go to college I feel everything is pale and everyone is like a doll.'   Natasha put her hands on my shoulder and said: Perhaps you should get used to all of this, you must change something in your character to get used to this place, it is not only a week or two, you will stay here for years but I told you not to worry and also told you Nathan not to worry, come on go to sleep, okay?' I stood slowly and told Natasha as I was going to the room: Okay, good night.' I was lying on the bed and before I fell into a deep sleep I was thinking about what Natasha told me that I must change something inside me, I must get used to the place and consider it like my house, there are still many days to come.