Million Words, One Letter

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My eyes suddenly opened when I heard Nathan laughing as he spoke with Natasha and looked at clock, It is 7:30, does it make sense to come to the apartment at this time?  I went to prepare to go to university, I put on my jacket and opened the bag to make sure if I forgot something, then I left the room and closed the door behind me and said:' good morning!' Everyone looked at me and said, Natasha:' Good morning, beautiful I See you smiling today, Are you ready? Have you thought about what I told you yesterday?' I suddenly stopped smiling and said in a calm voice: I thought no one knew about it, just you and me.'  Nathan looked at Natasha and said: What? I do not know anything!' She interrupted everyone and said, "I am late for the university, bye." Natasha quickly answered and said, "Wait!  What about coffee?' I thought that Natasha would become my friend and sister at the same time, it would become that girl who fills all the blanks in my life and it will be my secret box but she no longer is, while I took several steps away from the apartment I heard someone call out my name and then suddenly stood in front of me which made me stop walking:' Will you go on foot? I have a car, I can drive you.' I didn't look into his eyes and said: No thank you, I can walk, Anyway I'm going to buy a cup of coffee on my way.' I kept walking, so he called out again and said: By the way, Natasha didn't tell me anything, I felt you are angry about her, but she didn't tell me anything.' Oh really? If I misunderstood and thought that Natasha was a girl who never kept a secret, why was everyone misunderstood sometimes and why don't I trust everyone quickly? Why do I feel like everyone is laughing loudly behind me as if I were a clown, after all this I felt that I had to change something inside me, the hours were long at university and my mind was too busy thinking about changing something inside me and what should I change, everyone started noticing that I was not in my nature until one of the teachers asked me to stay before the time was up, everyone went out and stayed on my table waiting for the teacher to speak and said: Are you Sofia, right?' I answered and I was afraid, "Yes." He grabbed his glasses and said: It is very joyful to listen to your voice, you have never spoken since the beginning of your coming here, is there something that you want to talk about?' I grabbed the pages of my book and said: I am just tired, I want to get used to this place, I will be fine and I will get used to this place soon I promise you this.' The teacher smiled and put his hands on my shoulder and said: I hope so, well you can go out now and don't forget your homework.' Everyone was leaving the university while I was sitting on one of the stairs. I was trying to do some homework, I hear a very strong horn sound that does not stop, I felt annoyed and looked up to see, got out of his car, what brought him here?  Stop calling me from afar: Sofia, Sofia, come on, Come on!' no Please! Not this way, it's really ashamed, I put all my books in the bag and slowly went to him and said:' Why did you come here?' He opened the door of the car and said:' Let's get in the car, we'll go see some beautiful places.' I was reluctant to ride to the car, my feet were trying to stop but I was walking without thinking or hesitation, I got in the car and put my bag on my lap and keep silent while he was talking about many things, beaches in this city, markets, mountains, waterfall, cloudy sky  Suddenly, he stopped in front of the traffic light and said, "Where do you want to start?" The sound inside the car was very quiet and I was even listening to his breath, looking at the road and saying:' Can we be near the house?' He looked at me with strange features and said: What? I thought you wanted to go see the city, well but before that I want to show you something, it won't take long.' It was a long way to get to the place where Nathan was referring to, time was running out of me while I was also afraid to do something, all the thoughts were on my mind and I thought maybe he and Natasha were just people who wanted to steal me, and the thought took me for a long time until we got to the place and Nathan came down and he  He was heading to the car door towards me, he was tall and had an elegant and tidy body, he opened the door and asked me to go out to see the view, we went on foot for two minutes and then looked at the place, there was a beautiful waterfall, I felt like I was in a dream, the sound of water fed my ear and the smell of water and this view I could not believe to see a place like this, he looked at me all the time and then said: This is the place, what do you think?' I answered quickly ' I feel free, I feel I can jump over this place and fall into the water without feeling intimidated," Nathan looked at the long distance and then said: I don't think you can do that, well I want you to stay alone here for a while, sit on this rock, close your eyes, think well, I will be waiting for you, okay?' It was the most beautiful thing that happened to me since I came to this place, the place was unthinkable for anyone, I knew that he was looking at me from a little distance, when I was young I did not think that there is such a place, I only lived in the borders of the home and school, I only saw these places on TV and felt that if I had actually seen them I would have fallen out cause of their beauty.