Million Words, One Letter

You took everything

Before I closed the door of my room, Nathan pushed the door and closed it behind him and said loudly: 'What do you want?' Why did you close the door? Do you want me to shout? Do you want to do something bad? Get ou..." put his hand on my mouth and said": I promised you that I would do nothing for you, just calm down! I have been trying to talk to you but there has not been a good time all day.' I turned away from him as I looked into his eyes and said': So why do you do that? You are dealing in a way that makes me feel fear, chasing me everywhere, trying to solve all my homework and going without saying that you will do so.' I exchanged looks that made me feel that I would fall in love at any time, I was afraid of that and tried to get away from it as much as possible, but he said:I just try to help you, I see that you are a new student at the university and wanted to help you, but I do not want you to feel frightened towards me, I have told you several times that I am older than you and not... well, that's fine.' Nathan did not finish his talk but he fled, yes he fled because he did not finish what he said and this is very clear, I locked the door quickly and sat on the bed thinking about while everyone was talking outside, I could not sleep all the time, why is he trying to help me but I did not ask for help, he helps me more than Natasha even, I have to be careful of every step that Nathan does, I did not notice the time that passed but I see that the sun has almost gone out while I have not been able to sleep yet, I went out to the living room and saw Natasha still talking to the phone and then suddenly said: Are you still awake?  What is the matter?' I sat next to her and said in a quiet voice:" I don't know, I feel something is going on, something scary." Natasha closed the call and said 'What do you mean? Right! Did something happen to you and Nathan? I saw him he went to the room immediately after I went to your room, and also when he came back he said that he will go home because he feels a headache, I feel that this is the first time Nathan feels a headache that makes him go home this way.' I put my feet on the sofa and said' I don't know, He went into the room and told me that he wouldn't do anything and that he just wanted to help me, I don't know I feel like there's something going on in his mind."Natasha laughed and said." I think Nathan is starting to feel something personal towards you, I'm not telling you that all the girls at work love Nathan but they at least want to go out with him, He is a stylish man and he is completely different from the rest of the men. You can say he looks like a Batman or a Superman." I laughed in a soft voice and said to her: "What makes you say that?" She grabbed my hand and said:" I'm just telling the truth, I don't want you to feel that Nathan is a bad man. He's gone through very difficult times and did a lot of bad things before that, but he's not bad." And I said, "What do you mean, he did a lot of bad things before?" She looked down and said:' I don't know, he loved an old woman when he was twenty-eight years old and that was about two years ago, but she tried to take away all the money that he had, at the same time that he learned of the betrayal of his ex-girlfriend, his mother died,  Then his father stayed for several months and he too died,Nathan does not have any brothers or sisters, he lived his life smoking and sitting at home for several days without going out but he overcame that, Nathan is still the person everyone wants, I had hoped to come out with me one day but he did not. ' I couldn't forget what Natasha said, I wanted to know a lot about Nathan but I wanted to hear everything from him but this doesn't matter to me, he said he just wants to help me.