Million Words, One Letter

Absolutely No

I took a lot of time to think and then said:" I can sleep somewhere else if you are going to talk about promises, but it is too late and the weather is getting cold more." I didn't speak a word, but I gave him my bag and I smiled quietly, took the bag and got in the car and then he said:' Did you eat well? Actually, the food wasn't good because of him, I don't feel like I enjoy food every time Jose is in the apartment.' Then I said:' You can buy food, I'm not tired, I can wait.' Nathan tries to look into my eyes and then says:' I can see that.' It was already too late, there was no one walking in the streets and there were not many cars on the highways, we got to Nathan's house and went down to get the bags out but this time he forgot to open the door for me and then suddenly said:' Oh, I'm sorry I forgot to open the door for you.' I smiled and went behind him to open the door, even the door to the house was very elegant, the lighting of the house was lit by itself as soon as someone opened the door and then closed it himself and said:' I don't think you want strong lighting like this, I will go to open that one.' I was looking at the house left and right, I felt it was completely different from the time I came with Natasha, he went to open the lighting and then said:' Do you want to close the door of the house? Or let it open? Well I think you know about the location of the kitchen, the living room, the bathroom there are four and also there are four rooms at the top, is that clear?' I told him that everything was clear and then I went to one of the rooms to switch my clothes and wear pajamas, I was looking everywhere before I did anything, I had never seen a house like this in my life, but what if he was putting something here or there? Every room had a TV, a living room, and a balcony too, and while I was trying to see one of the rooms, Nathan came quickly and said:" Sorry, did you choose the room?" I pointed to that room and said:" Actually it is the room that I always sleep in, but it's okay." Then I said:" I'm sorry, you should have told me, I'm going to another room." Nathan refused to go to another room and then invited me to drink coffee, He made milk coffee and coffee without milk and then said:' Well I think you will choose coffee without milk, right?' I looked at the coffee and then I chose the coffee with the milk, it was really coffee without milk it was my choice but I didn't always want to make it right in his choices and ideas, He sat near my feet while I was sitting on the bed drinking coffee and then said:" I don't know what I should say, Natasha should have apologized because you went to sit with her, I should have told you about all this." I put a cup of coffee and said:' Why does Jose have so many kids? Why does he always hit her?'  He looked at me and said:' He's smoking...' I interrupted him and said:" Did Natasha know that?" Nathan answered and said:' She helped him sell though that was dangerous but every time I fight with Jose she tells me that she loves him and that she will do a lot for him, so he does not find anything wrong with having many girls.'  Then I said:" So are you trying to protect her?" And he said': More than that, she was standing beside me a lot when I needed her but we shouldn't leave her now, and you shouldn't go to the airport late.' She smiled while drinking coffee and then said again:" You will stay here for several days until Jose goes, I know you do not feel comfortable, there is no trust." I interrupted him and said': If I don't trust you then why did you come here? Can you use your mind?' Nathan laughed that beautiful smile, it was beautiful enough, tall and that soft black hair, medium in length, his eyes sparkled when he looks at me as if he is telling me a lot but he is not talking about anything, his hands were filled with veins, suddenly he put a cup of coffee and I wake up from that dream and said:" Well I think you're tired now, I'm going to Natasha and come back in the morning." I get up speedly and grabbed his hands and said:" You can stay here, I can't sleep alone in this house." He looked at me smiling gently and said:' You still do not trust anyone, you even do not trust m...' interrupted him and said': I trust you now, you always stand by my side and feel I safe, I finally feel I can go to sleep while here a man can protect me.' Nathan held the strands of my hair with his hand and said in a calm voice:" So are there promises?" I smiled while I was looking down while it was difficult to look at my eyes. He put his fingertips on my chin gently to see his eyes, every time I look at his eyes I tell myself that I do not want to fall in love, But his eyes and his warm hands made me feel that love, I was feeling the warmth of his face near my ear, some strands of my hair got stuck in his chin while I was trying to get away from him and then I said quietly': Good night, Nathan.