Million Words, One Letter

Touch The Pain

It was twelve o'clock, the streets were scary while I was going back to the house and all the windows of the houses are closed, I got to the house and opened the door and then I quietly entered until I got to upstairs, before I got into the room I heard a strange voice, someone was crying, I got close to the room as I listened to that sound, then Nathan came out wiping his eyes while his nose was red from crying, He looked at me terribly, quickly locked the door behind him and then said in a crying voice as he tried to speak normally': Sophia? Where have you been? It's twelve o'clock!' I looked into his eyes and then said:' I was walking in the garden, but...' He interrupted me when he felt that I was going to talk about the reason for his crying and said, 'Did you have dinner?' Then I said:' Yes, what's wrong? Is everything okay?' He smiled and said:" Yes, yes, are you going to sleep?" I looked at him for a while and then I said 'Good night.' I went into the room while he heard the door sound when I locked it, he felt that I was scared and did not know that I would be present at this time or maybe I think that I am already at home, it was scary today, why Natasha looked at me in a strange way when I told her that I live in a Nathan's house? And why was Nathan crying when he got out of that room? He even closed that room quickly, fearing to see what was inside, I could not sleep that day, and I continued to look at the lighting under the door of the room and finally I told myself that I would go to sit in a hotel when the morning came, when the sun raised I took my bag and got out of the house and called a Taxi finally without Nathan standing on my way, I went to a hotel near the university, That was not a clean hotel but it did I felt really comfortable and lay on the bed and slept again and then suddenly my phone rang while Nathan was calling, a lot of calls and a lot of text and voice messages, I didn't feel well to read those messages and felt like I was really need to forget Nathan and Natasha too, I called my family and told everyone that I am fine and that I am happy and that I also need money, my family did not send enough money only but they sent more money and felt that I can finally buy an apartment here, I went to the apartment to see it, it was very small but it suits me, I told my mother that I would buy an apartment and was happy with that and also said that she will come one day to visit me, after several days I bought that apartment and my family started sending money to me every month so that I buy furniture, I actually forgot Nathan and I started studying and doing all my homework without thinking about anything, Without feeling intimidated returning to Nathan's house or seeing Jose, I promised myself that I wouldn't speak to anyone personally, what if I were that mysterious girl?  Everyone will feel that I am scary but in return, I will feel comfortable, I will not worry about problems yet, I have passed the first stage of study and started to learn something else new, spring has gone, summer has returned, autumn has gone, then winter has returned, I opened the apartment door and I was carrying heavy bags and started making dinner for myself only, I was listening to TV loudly, the day did not come when I feel sad yet, I was very happy and I think that what I did was correct hundred percent.