Million Words, One Letter

I Can Tell.

The day was not perfect for me and I could not sleep, but I was awake until I went to university, I met that girl next to the door before I entered the lecture and said to me:' Fortunately the teacher did not come today, what will we do?' I answered it easily:" Well, I'm going home, I want to rest." She grabbed me and said:" Hey, wait, we can go to the restaurant, I want to talk about something." I really wanted to talk to someone in order to forget what I feel, I wanted to forget Nathan and what happened that day, I went with her to the restaurant and sat waiting for food and then said:' Actually I am not from this country but I have been living here for a long time, I was seeing you always lonely so I felt that there was something in common between us, maybe we could be friends.' I smiled at her and said:" Of course, we can."She put her hair behind her ear and said:" Well, I want to tell you something, do you see that young man who came to take the order?" I like him and always come here to see him.' What now, I don't want to talk about love and I said:'Okay? But I don't feel like you, he wasn't looking at you... I mean, did you tell him that?' She said:" I wanted to do that but I always see him busy taking orders." I approached her and said 'What about now?You can tell him. ' She looked at me laughing and then said:" This is crazy, I can't do that. Actually I came with you so you can tell him." Hey, so she wants me to be her friend for this topic? And I said to her:" Of course I will do that, I will go to him" I did not feel shy at the time, maybe this was the first time I did something like this, without feeling shy and maybe this is the last time I will feel shy in it, I went to him while he was waiting for requests and then I said:' Hi, what's your name?' I know it's a personal question but... 'He interrupted me and said': My name is Jordan.' I said:" Do you know that this girl likes you?" Then he said, laughing:" Yes, I know it. She comes here every day and every time she comes here she doesn't want anyone to take the order only me but when I don't go to her she goes away without eating, and always looks at me, look at her." I looked at it from afar and said:' I see that, but are you agree?' I mean you can give her a chance. ' He looked at the time and said: "My work will be finished after ten minutes, she can wait here." I went to her to tell her about it and started hugging while laughing and smiling, she went to the bathroom and went back again and then she said:" I am sorry I could not eat with you, but we can do it on another day." I looked at her while I was smiling and said:" Don't worry, just go." I saw her walking out of the restaurant with him, I felt like a girl that everyone could take advantage of, It could become like a doll, Why did I go and talk to that man who was so easy to agree to go out with her? What if he does something bad with her and then she cries and blames me? At the same time, I was thinking what if she was happy with him?  What if he gave her the love she wished for? He embraces her and tells her that he likes her too? Why didn't I do that with Nathan before he went? Why didn't I give him a chance?  I went out with my hands in my pocket and rode to the bus, sometimes I feel like I want to cry and sometimes I feel like I should forget Nathan and not give him a chance to hang on to him more, I sent a text message to my mother and told her that I always missed them, I went back to the apartment while Natasha was sitting with one of them and then said: 'Now that Sofia is back, I came back early.' I answered it coldly:' The teacher has not come today.' She looked at the person sitting next to her and then said:" I remembered, this is Jose he is my friend, I mean..." Jose said hurriedly out loud": I am Jose and this is my baby Natasha.' I looked at them and said 'Why didn't you tell me? I thought you were not related to anyone!' Jose looked out with astonishment as he laughed and said:" Hey, moment, is Natasha... Do you love girls?" She hit him hard and said:are you crazy?  She has been here for several weeks, she is studying English as the university, just shut up.' I smiled and went to my room, why is everyone talking about love? In that moment that I do not want to hear anything about love and at that moment I do not want to fall into the circle of love? Is this a sign that Nathan should be given a chance? Or does it indicate that I have to wait a little longer to see for myself what will happen to those around me?