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Killing Me Softly

I woke up the next day when the sun was shining on my face, I looked at the clock and went to the bathroom to shower and then I went out after half an hour after I wore my clothes inside and went down to go to university while Nathan was eating on the table and said, "Where are you going? I mean good morning.' I smiled and said:' Good morning, Nathan, I'm going to college.'  He grabbed the cup of coffee and said:" I made you coffee with milk!" I sat at the table next to him while he was reading the news in the newspaper and then he looked at me and said:" Do you have a long lecture at the university?" I said:" I don't think so, but more importantly, I have a short exam and then I can leave."  Nathan smiled and said:' That's fine then we can get out!' I signs of rejection and then said:" I have homework to do, I don't think so." Nathan put a cup of coffee and said:' I thought we were friends! I thought you would ask me to help you with homework.' I was shocked when he said the word "friends" but I tried to pretend we were really friends and said:" Well if you can help me when I get back." Then he said:" What about your hair? Do you get your hair wet?' I grabbed my hair and said:' I always do this do not worry, bye.' That word remained stuck in my mind and I cannot forget it, I cannot forget that view when he told me that we are friends even though I try to get away from him but I do not believe what he said, and in return he felt that he did something wrong when he said that word, fortunately I forgot everything and started In solving all the questions on the test and I never thought about anything, sometimes I think that I should think about my studies and go home and stay with my family only, but every time I say that my mind comes back to thinking about Natasha and Nathan as well, I left the university and went back home Immediately while Nathan was working on the engineering of a house, he said:' You came? How is the university?' I answered calmly as if it was normal:" It was good, I have completed the test and everything is fine. What about you?" What are you doing?' He moved away from the table so I can see what he's doing and then said:" I am making a plan for the house that we will be building, it will be this next week." I smiled and said:' I wish you luck, I will change my clothes and then I will go to the library.' Nathan put up the pen and then said:" Okay, I'm going to pick you to the library, there's no library close to home." I went up the ladder two steps and then said again:" I will not go to the library, I will go to Natasha, I want to talk to her." I was trying to get out of the house in any way and without going out with him, I went to the room and closed the door and I feel so nervous that I thought I would go to live with Natasha, I went out again from the room while he was waiting for me outside and then said:' Are you doing this because you don't feel comfortable in this place? Tell me the truth! I can help you go to a hotel to stay there but you can't go back to Natasha's house, Do you know who Jose is? If she was the one who threw herself to him then you can't do that, you understand me!' I looked into his eyes and said:' Why are you talking to me as if I like him? I really can't trust him and I told you that I couldn't stay in the apartment, and I was the one who carried his bag and went.' He continued looking at me and said:" Okay, where are you going now?" Then I said:" I'm going to walk... by myself." I left the house while I was trying to contact Natasha until she accepted the call:' Hello Sophia? How are you doing?' I answered in a serious voice': I want to see you now, I don't know where." Then she answered:' Where are you? Is there something wrong?' I answered': 'I'm near Nathan's house, I'll tell you later.' Then she quickly said:" Well there is a garden next to Nathan's house, we'll meet up there." I went to the park waiting for Natasha until I looked at her from a distance and went to her, hugged me so tightly and said:' I missed you, why did you leave? where do you live now?' I looked at her while my eyes were full of tears and I said:' I live in Nathan's house.' Natasha walked away a little and looked at me in a frightening way, then said:' What? I mean, do you feel comfortable there?'  Then I said:" The truth is, no, I feel afraid, I don't know what to do, I feel that every time I go to sleep I cannot sleep directly, all things seem frightening to me."  Natasha approached and hugged me again and then said:' I'm sorry, I shouldn't have taken Jose to the apartment, I didn't know you were going to leave the apartment, what do you think of going back? I will tell him that you will return.' I quickly answered:' No, I will try to stay in the Nathan house until I get the money from my family, then I will try to find a small apartment, can you help me?' She replied with a smile:' I will definitely do it anytime you want.' Her looks made me feel afraid and that something was going on that I should be careful about, We went to a restaurant close to the garden and ate food while Jose was trying to contact her until she went without warning.