Million Words, One Letter

Not Yet

I used to spend all of my time reading books, watching TV or eating, sometimes talking to my family for a long time, Nathan did not come after all that happened on that day, One day I was preparing food while my phone was ringing again and again, It was Natasha and I deliberately did not answer her calls until I finished preparing food and sat on the sofa and then read that message': Hello Sofia? I hope you are fine, sorry that I did not help you in the search for the apartment and I was not that friend or sister who helps her sister in difficult things, I am sorry that I moved away with you that easily, but I hope that you do not get away from me this time, Jose and I will get married tomorrow and I want you to come to the place we will celebrate, even if you do not want to come just do it, I really want you by my side on this day and I cannot stay alone, suddenly I felt that you are the only girl I think of, I will send the location to you and I hope to see you before anyone, love you.' I switched off the phone and started thinking while I was eating, what should I do? Should I go to that wedding or pretend I didn't see those messages and calls? But what if I go? What if I had fun there? Suddenly I jumped off the sofa and went to see a beautiful dress that I could wear tomorrow, I put the cleaning mask on my face and started choosing the right heels for the dress, I was hesitating at the same time but I told myself that it is only half a day and I will enjoy, the next morning I woke up to the sound of the alarm, I made a cup of tea with milk to be happy and put on makeup that I wasn't good at putting it and I wore a velvet red dress and black heels and then I also put a black scarf on my shoulder, I called a taxi driver and told him about the location and he went there, the road was too long which made me feel nervous or I can still go back to the apartment and forget about the wedding, I arrived at the place while everyone was beginning to come and welcome, A lot of kids, but all of them are Jose's relatives and I knew about it, I was looking at the place few seconds then I asked someone': Hello, where is Natasha? How can I see her?' She looked at me and then said:' Excuse me, who are you? I took off the sunglasses and then said:' I am her friend, I want to see her please.'  Then she said:' It is the second highest room on the right, there is an electric elevator.' Also an electric elevator? The place was like a palace, but it was already a palace, there were a lot of rooms and the garden in which the wedding will be held was very large, I knocked on the door and then someone opened and said:' Hello, who are you?' I smiled and said:" I am Sofia, a friend of n..." I heard Natasha say in a loud voice:" Let her enter, Natasha opened the door and hugged me forcefully as she cried and said": I am so happy to see you, this dress is very beautiful! You really grew up!" I smiled and I look at her": nothing has changed, it's just the makeup, your dress is so beautiful I've always wanted to see you wearing it." She laughed as she wiped her tears and said:' The time will come, I want you to do something for me.' I looked at it and said:' What is it?' Then she said:" I want you to hold on to the dress and become my Bridesmaid.' I hugged her again and said:" I will definitely do it." I didn't want to refuse anything that Natasha requested, it was difficult for someone to see me while I was not smiling, I was taking a lot of pictures of my family and helping Natasha hairdressing her and taking pictures of her until the time came to go to the garden and I don't know why I wanted to cry, Everyone was looking at her dress and looking at me, perhaps, because no one knows who I am, Jose was waiting for her while he was smiling and his eyes were looking at me sometimes until I got close to the place and put her dress on, I hugged her tightly and went away, every time I look at Jose I feel he is not ready to get married, his features tell me that he is waiting for the end of this boring day, the ceremony ended and everyone started celebrating and dancing, She went to Natasha while she was sitting on the chair to rest after she danced a lot and then said:" Thank you, I will never forget what you did, Sofia, when it is your wedding I will do everything to make you happy." I smiled while I am holding her hands and then said:' Where did you get this palace? I mean..' she got close to my ears to listen to her and said': Jose has paid everything.' Then I said:" Do you know where he got all this money?" Natasha started trying to escape this question and said:" He works a lot to get this money just for our wedding." I stood without talking and went to drink some water inside, then one of them came and said:' I had the pleasure of seeing you again, I haven't seen you for a long time.' His voice was familiar, I answered him and said:" Thank you, Jose... I came for Natasha." He looked at me while pouring water into the glass and said:" I think she is happy too, listen I'm sorry I acted strangely that day, I thought you would know it was a joke." I smiled and said': You don't have to worry about that day, I forgot everything.' Suddenly he grabbed my hand and said:" But I can't forget you an..." I slapped him hard and walked faster, my heart was beating hard and I couldn't breathe, I grabbed the dress and started trying to find the exit door, I ran behind the palace but unfortunately Nathan was there, holding the champagne cup and talking to a group of people, his eyes suddenly fell out and then he left everyone and said:' I didn't know you were here, Sofia? I smiled and pretended to be normal and said': Yes, Sofia." I was trying to inhale the air hardly while he was looking at me in amazement and said:' What is wrong with you?" Is the weather so cold?' He was wearing that elegant black suit and was really befitting of him, I looked into his eyes and said:" Nothing, can we go somewhere to talk?" He put the champagne cup aside taking out his car key from his pocket and said:' There is a classic restaurant here, we can go to it.