finding my way

^^^thats the cool swing area that Jess and Jason hangout

The waves crash towards the shore line as my thoughts wonder.

I choose to come to the beach, because I wanted to be at a peaceful place alone and able to let the salt air blow my thoughts away.

It's not working but I would like to think I gave it my best effort.

Jason has called me twice in the past two hours so I turned my phone off. my mother thinks I'm going crazy. I tell her I'm fine. I lie.

If someone were to ask what's wrong what happened to me in the past month that changed me so drastically. I would simply say I attempted to be everything to quickly. it takes thought to understand what I mean, but it's the only way I know how to say the truth.

My heart is hurt. I've only my self to blame.
Poor Peter discontentment brought me this. ironic really. I had such an amazing boyfriend who I genuinely cared for but Jason clouded my judgement so I broke up with him. now I'm left alone.
The sun Is setting over the blue horizon. I start to pack up my quilt and head to the car.
As I turn my phone on I notice briefly the 5 missed calls from Jason but ignore them i'll call him when I arrive back home.