Pinky Swear, Allyship (Completed)

CHAPTER 20

Gael hasn’t visited me on weekends. And kahit masakit sa parte kong sabihin ‘to, hindi siya ganiyan dati. Like everytime we had a fight, sisiguraduhin niyang  hindi ako matutulog ng may sama ng loob. He won’t allow me sleep without fixing our misunderstanding. Pero ngayon? Sobrang iba lang. Ibang iba. After I ended the call that night ay hindi na siya tumawag ulit. He just texted me that he’s sorry. Noong Sunday? Akala ko babawi siya, pero hindi pa rin siya nagpakita. 

I mean, I really understand that he is tired, that he is stress, pero yung weekends na dumating at he didin’t even manage to show himself ay hindi gawaing Gael ‘yon. I must admit na sobrang akong nasasaktan. Alam kong priority niya yun e, pero ano ba naman yung magtext sa akin na hindi siya makakapunta. Pero hindi pa rin niya nagawa. 

[Bella,] si mama over phone call. [Nasa hospital na kami ngayon,] hindi na rin siya nakakapasok sa school dahil wala namang ibang pwedeng magbantay kay daddy. 

“Nakausap niyo na po ba yung doctor?” I asked her while putting my things on my bag. Hinihintay na rin ako ni Debi papasok. 

[Hindi pa, anak. May allowance ka pa?] she sounds worried. Lagi na lang niyang tinatanong sa akin. 

“I still have money mom. Don’t worry about me. Ang mahalaga ay maipagamot natin si daddy,” I assure her. 

[Give me a call when you need money baby ha. Gagawan ko ng paraan,] parang gusto ko biglang maiyak but I have to be strong for them. Niluwas pa kasi si daddy dahil hindi naman kaya ang pagche’chemotherapy sa probinsya naming. 

“I will mom. You should take a rest too po. Magkakasakit ka din niyan ma,” palabas na kami ni Debi sa condo. “Kumain ka rin po sa tamang oras ha. Titignan ko po kung maiisingit ko sa schedule kong makapunta dyan. I’ll call later ma, pasok na po muna ako,” she didn’t say a thing as she ended the cal.. 

“Nagawa mo naman lahat ng dapat gawin diba?” tanong sa akin ni Debi habang palabas na kami sa condo. I just nodded at her. Dahil noong lingo ay tinapos ko ang mga gawain ko dahil hindi ko naman na ulit hinintay si Gael sa wala. 

We’re about to call a jeep when a familiar car stopped in front of us. It was Gael. I missed him. Biglang gusto kong yumakap sa kanya, at kalimutan ang tampo ko pero I manage not too. 

“Need a ride?” he smiled. I wonder kung paano pa siyang nakakangiti kahit alam niyang hindi kami okay. 

“Gael,” Debi delightfully called him. “Oo, we need a ride” and she give me stare. Sumakay na agad siya sa back seat so it means na kailangan talaga naming sumabay sa kanya. 

“Babe,” Gael walks on my direction. Gusto ko ng sumakaya pero may kung ano sa sarili ko na hindi man lang gumalaw. “I’m really sorry,” he said and then kissed me on my forehead. God! I missed my man. I smell his manly scent, now my favorite scent. 

“Bakit ka nandito? Wala ka bang pasok sa office?” I tried not to sound bitter but my eyebrows weren’t so participative on me. It is raising like a I am a god damn bitch. 

“It’s okay,” he smiled at me. “About Saturday~” 

“You’re busy,” I cut him off. “I am trying to understand Gael.” 

“It was so sudden, babe.” He look at me explaining his side. “I was really on my way but~”

“But what about nung Sunday? Busy ka din?” now I am pissed. 

“I gave you time to think, knowing that you are mad.” 

Nakaramdaman ako ng inis sa mga pinagsasabi niya. “Really? It’s not so you, Gael. Hindi ikaw yan. Hindi mo yan gawain” he looked at me with his apologetic eyes. “Kahit kapag alam mong galit ako pupunta at pupunta ka pa rin para maayos yun, pero yung ginawa mo ngayon?” my lips rose up forming a smirk. “I am trying to understand babe. Pero kahit man lang ata magtext o tumawag hindi mo nagawa. Kahit konting oras naman Gael. I am not demanding for your full time because your studies are your priorities. Alam ko ring pagod ka na sa trabaho, stress ka na, pinag-iinitin ka pa ng lolo mo, pero ano ba naman yung isang text lang Gael? Bakit hindi mo pa nagawa?” I wanted to hear his side, pero shit! Male’late na kami at siya rin sa pasok niya.