Pain given by someone you love is just so much hard to accept. When you give your all in and then you kept on losing. Love wasn’t a game but why does it feel your loosing? Why does it feel you choose the wrong track that you keep on running even if it’s not for you anymore?
“Ganon ganon na lang ba ‘yon, Bella? ” umiiyak na tanong ni Gael sa akin. “Aren’t we going to talk about this?”
“Bella, can we figure this out? Can you give me a chance? Bella, hindi ganito. Hindi ganito yung inasahan kong mangyayari,”
“Then what did you expect? Matuwa ako na pumayag sa bet na ‘yon para makilala ako at mapaglaruan ako?”
“I didn’t play with you, Bella.”
“Then if you didn’t play with me, sana wala ka sa harapan ko ngayon. Hindi naging tayo. Hindi dapat tayo nagkakilala. Iyon dapat yun, Gael.” I break down. I have to be thankful enough that the crowd here at school minimizes and that there are no eyes watching on us.
“Hindi na natuloy yung bet, Bella,”
“But that doesn’t change the fact that you still play with me.”
“Can’t you forgive me? Can’t you give me another chance? Bella one mistake, one mistake~”
“-that could change everything,” I cut him off. “Gael that’s not just a mistake. Gael alam mo kung gaano ako nasaktan sa past relationship ko. Alam mo~”
“Why do you keep on comparing me to him?” he asked. His eyes were already red from crying.
“Dahil wala kang pinagkaiba sa kanya. Dahil pareho niyo lang akong sinaktan na para bang isa akong laruan. Tao ako Gael, and I didn’t know kung bakit ganun na lang sa inyo kadaling saktan ako.”
“Babe, let’s figure this out please. Nasasaktan na ako, hindi ko na alam.”
“Ako ba Gael hindi ako nasasaktan? Kung nasasaktan ka paano na lang ako? Ako yun niloko, sa pangalawang beses Gael.” I burst into tears.
He shut his mouth. I can’t stand seeing him cry. It’s too much to stand and all I want by now is to let him go. Make him let go of me.
Patawad dahil hindi ko na kaya pa. Patawad kasi sa ang sakit sakit mapaglaruan sa pangalawang pagkakataon.
“Don’t you love me anymore?” mahina niyang tanong subalit sapat lamang para marinig ko. He’s now staring at the ground not wanting to see me cry at parang pakiramdam ko ay hindi niya gusting may isagot ako.
“I love you, Gael. Mahal na mahal kita. I love so hard, and that I even fought for my own trust just to say to myself that I have to trust you. That you are not like them. But it hurts me more to say that… you proved me wrong.”
“Bella,”
“I trusted you, Gael. You made me believe that you love me~”
“Because I really love you. Lahat ng ‘yon totoo. I loved you so much that it pains me to see that it’s not enough to make you stay. To give me second chance to prove that I really love you. No matter what the situation is.” He looked at me with his eyes that screams with pain.
“Sobrang tigas ng puso mo. Your heart became so cold suddenly. You’re not like that Bella. You always wait for me to explain.” He added when I kept my mouth shut.
“Sorry, Gael. Sorry kasi sobrang tigas na ng puso ko para maniwala pa sa’yo. Hindi mo naiintindihan kung gaano ako nasasaktan~”
“Alam ko.”
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