I'll Remember

Sixteenth Week

I've been thinking about our deal even before you won the game against Ashford. Kinakabahan ako. Hindi ko alam kung kaya kong ibigay ang hihilingin mo.

Kung anu-ano na lang ang pumapasok sa isip ko na pwedeng hilingin mo. I mean, you're a Cervantes-Saavedra. Wala kang hindi kayang makuha.

"Maybe he'll ask you for a date." Magui suggested. Kwinento ko sa kanya ang tungkol sa gusto mong reward. I didn't bother telling her some parts of the narrative. Mainly the part where you went full on naked and freak everyone out.

Only a few students witnessed the stunt you pulled in the Trident. Wala ring nagvideo noon kaya hindi kumalat. You also ordered them not to kiss and tell. I was amazed because nobody really spread it! Mga senior high school pa ang binalaan mo! The power you hold is really something.

"Aren't we too young for that?" I asked back. Sa tingin ko hindi pa ako handa para sa romantic relationship. I'm only sixteen. I've known you since we were kids, Sky. There's also no denying that I have feelings for you too. It's just that, I don't want to rush anything. I don't want to jump into something that I'm not ready for. Magiging unfair sayo.

And we are just in the process of rebuilding our friendship. For now, I'm just really contented with what we have. Just spending time together. Getting to know each other again.

We were apart for years. I have to learn new things. You will also discover something new about me. I've changed. The Troian you knew from before, is different from who I am now.

I just want to know if you're really someone who would accept and love all versions of me.

Because feelings fade, that's something I know too well. My Dad loves Mom so much before. But years after, they both change. Pareho silang tumanda. Then Mom's principles became driven by her independence and leadership. Before, she's very meek and soft spoken. But over the years, she discovered that she's meant to be a leader. A self made woman. Naging career oriented siya. Napalago niya ang company namin. She chased her dreams. And Dad felt he's no longer the priority.

He felt inferior.

He doesn't like this version of mom. He likes the submissive wife he once knew. So, he failed to accept Mom's new heart and mind.

Kaya naghanap ng iba.

The reason why I want to make sure that if I'm going to commit myself in a relationship, I want to find someone who's okay to fall in love with, five years, ten years, and many years from now.

Kung sino ako ngayon, ay iba sa kung sino ako five years in the future. I want to find someone that I'll be able to love despite the changes. Though, my mind and even my heart change throughout those years, if you are the right person, it'll be easy to fall in love with you again. My heart will rekindle.

I want that kind of love.

Kahit na dinaanan ng pagbabago, kaya pa ring ibalik. Kaya pa ring magmahal ng paulit ulit. Sa iisang tao. Just different versions.

Just like listening to a song. One day you'll love it so much. The next day you grew tired of it. So, you will look for another.

But you failed to realize that you don't need to change the artist, just the song. You can look for another song with the same artist and you will love it again. You will fall for another song of hers. You will fall again. Just different version.

But many failed to do that. They sort out to find different artist when they grow tired from a song.

Ayaw ko ng ganoon. So, I have to be sure.

"There's no age for love, darling. Lucky ka, you have a Saavedra who's head over heels for you! Over the years, nandiyan pa rin! Since childhood, girl! Grabe 'yon." Maarte niya pang sagot.