Fame Isn't Worth It | k.th

Chapter 15

After Taehyung's exhaustion scare, we had him take the next day very easy. We didn't have him participate in practice and during the concert every time he came below the stage we'd be giving him water and fanning him. Luckily he was doing a lot better.

Today however, was a great day and no one would be able to ruin that for me.

Because...today was the day we were flying into LA meaning, I was gonna be able to see Lena. It had been about a month and a half since I had seen her and while that doesn't seem that long, I've never been apart from her for this long. 

We boarded the flight to LA, my excitement practically radiating off of me. 

"Someone is in a good mood," Jungkook remarked.

"You would be too if you were seeing your best friend after a whole month," I scoffed.

He chuckled, "Well I see my best friend everyday. He's got quite a knack for performing."

I rolled my eyes, "Considering how much you two cat-fight, yikes." 

Time Skip

After our four and a half hour flight later and we arrived in LAX.

"Since you're going to meet and stay with your friend, I just want to make sure-"

"Don't worry I have the schedule and I won't be late. However, I won't be able to join your sightseeing adventures for most of the days because my employer asked me to come into his office to help him out with a few things. But on the day I have off, I'd love to take you to some of my favorite spots. And I'll also join you guys for the interviews of course," I confirmed.

"Miss Kang!" A familiar voice shouted.

I turned to see Lena waving her arms frantically.

Forgetting everyone else, I sprinted towards her, enveloping her in a crushing hug.

"Ahh I missed you!" I squealed.

She took all my bags and put it in the trunk of my car.

"Oh my god can I drive? I haven't driven in ages!" I exclaimed.

She ruffled my hair, "Why do you think I came in your car stupid?"

I gave one last wave to the others before hopping in the car. God I was so excited to be back.

Taehyung POV

She was gone in an instant.

"How rude. Some people have no manners," Sora remarked.

At her remark, I noticed some of the managers and staff roll their eyes and snicker. Actually it had been happening a lot. Ever since Sora changed, the managers and staff had been giving her that look a lot. Honestly, I was tempted to too.

She grabbed my arm roughly, nuzzling her head against it, "Come on babe, let's go back to the hotel and have some alone time."

I felt myself getting really annoyed. In Paris when I had told Soorim that I felt like our love was fan service, I wasn't lying. I had wanted more besides acting cute in front of other people. But since then, it has felt like too much. At first I liked it, but then it became way to obsessive and controlling. She was hurting those around me just to mark her territory.

We all headed to the hotel, splitting off for some alone time. 

Sora kept asking me to 'love on her' whatever the heck that means, not that I want to know. Every second she would attach herself to me and give me these crazy looks. 

I finally decided that I needed out.

"Babe, I'm gonna go play games with Jungkook. Be back in a bit," and with that I hurried out of our room.

I wanted Soorim. I wanted to talk to her and get an answer for my question. After that day she pretended that I hadn't asked. I wasn't going to push her for an answer, but I wanted a general sense. 

I arrived at Jungkook's room, hurriedly closing the door behind me. Despite all the bickering we had been doing lately, he was still a great friend and was always there for me. 

We started playing Overwatch with the room's provided playstation. 

I was trying hard to beat Jungkook when he suddenly paused it.

"Hyung, I've got something to ask you that's been bugging me a lot," Jungkook sighed.

I put the controller down, "Sure, what's up?"

He looked me dead in the eyes, his body language depicting confusion and conflict. I knew what he was going to ask about yet there was this unexpected aura to it.

"Do you have feelings for Soorim?" 

There it was. Expected but not. His eyes were searching mine for a sign. He was confused. He was reeling. He needed answers. I understood him.

"Why don't I explain what I'm feeling to you, and then you help me figure out if I do. I'm with Sora. She's my girlfriend and I love her. But when I'm with Soorim, this crazy feeling overwhelms me. When she speaks, I feel like I'm on a cloud. And when she makes the slightest contact with me, I get this exciting rush. At first I thought it was just the rush of a new friendship, but the more time we spend together, the less friendly it feels. She's caring, talented, fierce, and stunning. And when I'm alone with her, I find it hard to contain myself. It takes extreme restraint to hold back from doing something I might regret. I don't want to hurt anyone. Not her and not Sora. So I don't know. Does this constitute having feelings?" I asked.

Jungkook gave a  bitter smile, "Yeah, you definitely have feelings for her."

"What about you?" I asked.

"I think I have feelings for her. They're pretty strong actually. I hate to say it, but whenever I see you two together, I get so unbelievably jealous. I want that to me. I want to love her and for her to love me. I'm going to tell her how I feel soon. We tried to talk about it before but we lost the chance. So while we're here in her home city, I'm gonna tell her," he said.

I felt my heart stop. What if he got to her before I could figure out my feelings?

"I see that look in your face and I want to laugh because you have no reason to feel nervous. I'm ninety-nine point nine percent sure she's gonna say that she wants to stay as friends. She looks at you in a way that she doesn't look at me. But I'll regret it if I never at least let her know," he gave a pained smile. 

"Kook..."

"No hyung, I'm fine. I'm a big boy who can deal with big boy feelings. I want her to be happy though. So please figure it out what  you're going to do soon because the more you confuse her, the more you hurt her, and I don't know what I'll do if she gets hurt. She means a lot to me," he confessed. 

I tried to find the words to say but I couldn't. Nothing was coming out. 

Sora and Soorim. Sora was my first proper girlfriend and serious relationship. I love her a lot and I'm very devoted to her. I'd walk to the ends of the Earth for her.

But Soorim, she was Soorim. While I felt that way about Sora, I wasn't sure if she felt the same. But with Soorim, she's got a good heart. She'd do that for anyone. She'd sacrifice everything for others. It's that innocence coupled with her obvious past experience that helped her mature that draws me to her. She reciprocates feelings but knows that she has to get what she's entitled to.

God I am so screwed.