Across The Great Barrier

14

"Please observe your surrounding. Hindi lahat ng nakangiti sa'yo, maasahan mo. Hindi lahat ng kasama mo, nagsasabi ng totoo sa'yo. Kilalanin mo sila. hindi mo alam na habang niyayakap mo sila, sinasaksak kana nila sa likod. And yet, magpapanggap sila na sila ang nasaktan."

"It is not my role to expose them. In due time, they will expose themselves for who they really are."

"Someday.. you'll know who you are. just wait for it and when that time comes, promise me you won't leave me."

"Your answers are all next to you, you just have to observe."

"Just don't trust everything you see, even salt looks like a sugar."

I don't know if it's just me, but everyone around me acts so weird. What the fuck's wrong with these people?!

I did my very best para hindi na sumagi sa isip ko lahat ng sinabi nila, but their words was just so powerful! It affects me so bad!

To the point that I don't want to trust anybody, anymore.

"Huy eym! Tulala ka?" Napalingon naman ako kay Cha na ngumunguya ng pearl. We're currently at the milktea shop na malapit sa subdivision namin, gabi na at inaya ko siyang magmilktea dahil pakiramdam ko, hindi ako papatulugin ng mga salita nila.

"Cha... is it possible na magsinungaling sa'yo ang taong pinagkakatiwalaan mo?" Seryoso kong tanong sa kaniya, nabulunan naman siya sa tanong ko kaya inabutan ko siya ng tissue.

"Hinay hinay lang kasi." Saad ko.

"I-I was just.. shocked, what's with the question ba eym?" She asked habang pinupunasan parin ang bibig niya.

I sighed, "I was just so confused, there's something bothering me..." I said habang pinaglalaruan ang straw ng milktea sa harap ko.

"What was that?"

"Their words, I don't know but they keep saying na someone's betraying me..."

"Ga-ganon ba? Is it Clyde?"

"I don't think so, Isa rin kasi siya sa nagsabi." Tumingin ako sa ibang direksyon dahil gusto ko pang mag isip isip. There's just one person na pwede akong lokohin, It's just Clyde. Hindi naman si Xav, at lalong hindi si Cha.

I sighed, "You know what, kapag nalaman ko talaga kung sino 'yang nanggagago sa'kin, hindi ko na siya hahayaang mabuhay." Ikinuyom ko ang mga kamay ko at matalim na tumingin sa basong nasa harap ko.

"A-ang serious naman!" She laughed and I also laughed with her, buti nalang talaga nandito si Cha. Kung wala siya baka hindi ko na alam kung San ako pupulutin ng malawak kong isipan.

Her phone rang at agad ko siyang sinenyasan na sagutin ito. After they talked, nagpaalam na si Cha dahil hinahanap na daw siya ng Mommy niya. So, I sat here alone. Ayoko pang umuwi, dahil mas lalo akong mag ooverthink sa bahay. Baka pati si Tita Janine madamay sa kalawakan ng isip ko.

I open my phone at nagbukas ng instagram, I take a photo of the empty chair in front of me and I put it in my story with a caption 'alone'.

I turned off my phone at sumipsip sa milktea ko. Naputol naman ang pag iisip ko ng may umupo sa harapan ko. and for devil's sake, it's Clyde.

"Hey..." I looked at him

"Hmm?" I asked him with a bored tone, wala akong ganang makipag usap sa kaniya. Dahil sa mga salita nila, hindi na ako nakakatulog.