Across The Great Barrier

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In life, you really have to accept that something happened because it is destined to happened, and you can't do anything about it. But for you to able to fix yourself is to accept and move on from what happened yesterday. Face tomorrow with a smile on your face and overcome your problem with a courage in your heart.

The key of moving on: Acceptance. Without acceptance, we cannot find perfect composure.

No words can express how much his death hurt me, No words can express how much I hate them, and No words can express how much I want to kill them.

I want them to experienced what they did to my Papa.

But I'm just so tired of doing revenge...

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Nagising ako at nakita ko si Tita Janine na nakaupo sa tabi ko at nakayuko ang ulo sa kaliwang kamay ko.

She looked tired...

Tumingin naman ako sa kanang kamay ko at nakita ko si Mama na ganoon din ang pwesto.

Mukhang pagod silang dalawa...

'Take care of your Mom and your Mama for me, okay?'

I heard his voice on my mind, I remember how He hugged me and kissed my forehead. Those things that I will never experienced again... And as I promised, I will take care of them even in my last breath.

I can't afford to lose someone that I love again. I can't afford to lose the biggest piece of my soul again. never again.

I felt my tears falling down to my cheeks at Naramdaman kong gumalaw silang dalawa kaya nagpanggap akong natutulog. I don't want them to see me crying, I don't want to show my weaknesses to them..

Naramdaman kong tumayo silang dalawa.

"Clyde...Bibili lang kami ni Janine ng makakain." I heard Mama said, narinig ko ang mga yapak nila at ang mabilis na pag sarado ng pinto. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makaalis sila.

Andito pala si Clyde?

"Open your eyes, I saw you.." He said, I slowly opened my eyes and I saw him... I was about to speak ng maramdaman kong nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko, I need water. I looked at him at mabilis din akong umiwas ng tingin. Umupo siya sa upuan sa tabi ng higaan ko at kahit hindi ako nakatingin ay ramdam na ramdam ko ang mga titig niya.

"C-can I drink water?" I asked him without looking at him, I was so mad at him na niligtas niya ako. Kasama ko na dapat si Papa ngayon...

"Here." He handed me a glass of water but I can't drink it, He looked at me at inalalayan niya akong maupo. He touched my back at inalalayan ang ulo ko. Napangiwi ako sa sakit ng tagiliran at balikat ko, bagong tahi pala ang mga sugat ko. Nang makaupo ay mabilis kong ininom ang tubig, nauuhaw pa ako pero parang gusto ko ng coke.

"Slow down.." He said but I didn't mind him at tuloy tuloy kong tinungga ang tubig sa baso. Nang maubos ay inilagay ko ito sa table beside my bed and I looked away.

I sighed, "I want coke.." I said while pouting. I don't know but I want to drink coke.

"I want you." He said, I looked at him and I saw how his eyes sparkled when He saw me staring at him. Minsan naiisip ko, Did He really love me? And Why did He save me? Is it because he's guilty or is it because He's inlove with me?—- erase erase.