Across The Great Barrier

16

It's been a week since the incident happened, nakakulong lang ako sa kwarto at hindi umiimik. Paminsan minsan kusa nalang ako naiiyak dahil naaalala ko ang nangyari. Clyde's always here para bantayan ako, pero kapag class hours pinapaalis ko siya para pumasok.

I don't want him to prioritized me over his studies, mabuti nalang at madali siyang kausap. Hindi muna ako pinapapasok ni Tita dahil hindi pa nawawala ang trauma ko, kinausap na daw niya ang Dean at pumayag naman sa gusto nilang mangyari.

Kapag hinahawakan ako ni Tita or even Clyde, nagugulat ako. I was so damn paranoid at pakiramdam ko, Mangyayari ulit 'yon.

Tita was so mad at Cha, She doesn't want me to be with Cha kahit sa school. Noong bumisita daw si Cha dito, pinaalis siya ni Tita. I know that this isn't Cha's fault, alam kong hindi niya ginusto na muntik na akong marape. And I want to tell her that I'm okay, pero ayaw ni Tita.

She even told me to distance myself from Cha. I don't get it, Cha is my bestfriend!

In a week, napasara ni Tita ang bar. I don't know paano niya 'yon nagawa. But what do I expect from a Williams? A CEO of a Multi-millionaire company, Maski siguro presidente kaya niyang pababain sa pwesto. And that Rapist, nakulong na siya. Tita did everything para mahanap siya, He's rich! I bet nakakalabas din siya kaagad sa kulungan.

Pinatest niya rin lahat ng drinks na nainom ko, even the glass na pinag-inuman ko. And they found out na mayroong nakahalong drugs sa drinks ko, and that's why hindi ako makapalag at wala ako sa sarili.

I was so damn weak that night and it's because of a fucking drugs!

I need to ask Cha kung sino ang naglagay noon, at I'll make that person pay for everything. I'll make them pay, pahihirapan ko sila na. maski pag inom ng tubig, hindi nila magagawa.

I will never let it slide, pinagtulungan nila ako. Alam kong hindi lang siya mag isa na nagplano nito. because first and foremost, wala siya table namin. And they did that on purpose, and that purpose was to rape me!

Today is Monday at papasok ako, I don't want to sit here at hayaang umikot ang mundo. I need to do something para matapos na ito. Isa pa, ayokong sayangin ang scholarship na binigay saakin. At walang mangyayari kung magmumukmok lang ako sa kwarto. Ayoko ng umiyak ng umiyak, papangit ako.

Sinundo ako ni Clyde dahil sabi ni Tita, hindi pa daw maayos ang lagay ko. Pinilit niya nga akong magpahinga pa, pero sabi ko ayos na ako. Masyado na siyang maraming iniisip, at ayoko ng dumagdag pa.

"Are you sure?" I looked at him and gave him a nod. Nakikita ko sa mga mata niya na nag-aalala siya, pinakita ko naman na ayos lang ako para hindi na siya mag-alala.

"I don't like wasting my time doing nothing. I'll find out and I'll make them pay."

"Just be careful, okay?" He held my hand and gently kiss it.

I can't help but to smile, his gestures! Kung alam niya lang kung paano magwala ang sistema ko ng dahil lang sa mga ginagawa niya.

I was so lucky to have him as my Love. Can we stay like this forever?

"Of course, Love." I held his hand at nilagay ko sa kaliwang pisngi ko.

"Hindi ka na ulit mag-aalala saakin, and I'm sorry kung nag alala ka.."

"Come here.." Sinenyasan niya akong lumapit sa kaniya, Ibinuka niya ang kaniyang mga kamay na sinasabing yakapin ko siya.

I look at him while hugging him, "I'm your boyfriend and it's my responsibility to take care of you. I'm sorry if I wasn't on your side when you needed me the most." He kissed the top of my head, and then suddenly I feel secured.