It's a Love Story ~carl grimes book~

Chapter 19

    warning: sexual content

     He moved the hair out of your face and leaned down to kiss you. Things escalated rather quickly...

     Carl picked you up and stood with both of you under the water stream from the shower head. The steamy water crashed on the top of your heads and streamed down your faces as you heavily made out. He sat you down and finished washing the both of you. You both then stepped out of the shower and wrapped up in towels. 

     Carl carried you bridal style to his bedroom and locked the door when he walked in. He gently laid you on his bed and crawled on top of you. He began to passionately kiss you, when all of a sudden, he stopped

"I wish you would've told me" he said, staring into your eyes "About your stepdads"

"I was going to Carl, I just didn't know how, or when, and I just didn't want you to-" you were cut off by Carl's lips smashing back into yours

"I'm glad I know now" he said "because now" he paused to kiss your neck "I can show you what its really like" he whispered lowly

"C-carl" you whispered "I've never actually 'done it'. Like, voluntarily"

"It's okay, baby. I've got you" he said, kissing you

     Carl began removing your towel. You shivered from the cold air nipping at your wet skin. Carl admired your body for a moment, before leaning back down and kissing you. He began to suck on  your neck before finding your sweet spot and sucking harder. He pulled away and you could feel the dark mark he left. 

"You're so beautiful, my princess" he cooed. You blushed a dark shade of rose and leaned up to meet your lips with Carl's. "Do you wanna?" he asked "I don't want to push you or anything"

"Carl, if I were going to do this with anyone, I'd want it to be you" you said, staring into his eye. Carl kissed you some more before opening the drawer of the nightstand behind the bed and pulling out a small foil square. He tore it open and removed his towel to put the condom on

"I asked dad to get these a few weeks ago, just incase" he said

"I bet that was awkward" you giggled, Carl crawling back on top of you

"A little, but I told him we haven't done anything yet"

"Welllll" you giggled. Carl smirked and just kissed you for a while. Your bodies moved in sync.

"Are you ready?" Carl asked, lining himself with your entrance. You just nodded your head. Carl slowly pushed himself into you. You winced in pain and grabbed Carl's shoulders and squeezed them "Am I hurting you?" he asked 

"A little, but keep going" he pushed himself into you the rest of the way. He stayed for a second before asking if he could move. You said yes and he slowly pulled out a little, before pushing himself back into you. You squinted at the slight pain and tugged at his hair with one hand, and accidently dug your nails into your shoulder blades with the other

"Baby girl, are you sure you want to keep going?" he asked, stopping his gentle thrusts

"Yes. I do. It just hurts. It'll get better the longer we go. Just keep going" you said. He began to thrust again, still slow, but a little harder, this causing you to quietly moan

"You like that, baby?" he asked. You nodded and moaned in response

"Faster" you moaned. Carl's speed increased significantly, proving to you he was barely holding back before you told him to go faster. Carl slammed into you making you a moaning mess. Carl continued his hard thrusts before you felt a knot forming in your stomach

"Carl I-" I whimpered

"I know baby, me too" he replied breathily. "Can you spread your legs a little more?" he asked. You did as he asked and soon you released your high, and felt the warmth of Carl's pool into the condom. Carl grunted as you moaned out loud a few more times before he pulled out and removed his condom, throwing it in the trash. He laid his head on your chest and you just ran your fingers through his hair

"I love you so much" you said

"I love you too, princess" he said

next few paragraphs may be triggering to readers who have experienced sexual assault

     As you laid there, Carl on your chest, wrapped up in is warm embrace, memories began flooding back from the things that happened when you were young. The begging, the crying, the call for mommy, but she never came. You felt yourself begin to sweat more than before. You didn't know you were shaking until Carl squeezed you tighter. You saw everything that you saw when you were 9. It was like you were looking through your childish eyes.

"C-carl, can you get off me p-please?" you stuttered

"Y-yeah" he said, sitting up "You okay?" he asked, rubbing your back as you sat at up

"Please don't" you said "Will you hand me my underwear out of my bag over there?" you said pointing to the other side of the bed

"Of course" he said. He handed you the underwear while you put on his shirt

"I need some air" you said, unlocking the door and walking downstairs passed Rick and Michonne in the kitchen

"Y/n?" Rick asked

"Just, don't" you said, raising your hand and walking out the door onto the front porch. You almost walked off the porch because you weren't thinking. You're breathing got heavy and you fell to your knees. Your head was spinning and your entire body went numb. You vision blurred until you felt gentle hands shake you shoulder

"Y/n" it said "Y/n" it repeated. you looked over to see a blurry Michonne furrowing her eyebrows "What happened? We heard you and Carl, then you came stomping down, did he do something wrong?" she asked 

"No, Michonne" you said "He did it all right. It's not his fault. Nothing he did was wrong" you said, still in your daze "I need Glenn, will you go get him?" you asked 

"Y/n" she said "Glenn is dead. You watched it. He died last night"

"O-oh, yeah" you said, snapping out of your daze "I guess I just forgot"

"It's okay, hun. Do you want me to get Carl?" she asked 

"Uhm, yeah" you stuttered. She got up and walked inside. A few moments later you felt Carl sit down next to you and lay his hand on the small of your back "Hey" you whispered, staring forward at the setting sun

"Hey" he said back "You alright?" he asked

"Yeah, I was just having memories of.. you know what I'm talking about" you said, looking at him

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No, baby. You did everything right. You were so gentle and caring, and you couldn't have made it better, Carl"

"Oh" he said

"I love you" you said putting your hand on his cheek and kissing him "so much" you added

"I love you too, princess"

"Soo" you said "Wanna try this again?" you smirked

"Duh" Carl giggled, picking you up bridal style and carrying you in the house and up the stairs to his bed

You have the best boyfriend ever...