Forever Apart: Jaydick (Redwing pt 2)

6. Jason-At the cost of my lover

What the fuck is happening? I need to wake up from this if it is a dream. I got my best friend back but at the cost of my lover.Wake up, Jason! He sat down on the floor and cried. This can't be real but it feels so real. This is a lie. Maybe Scarecrow playing tricks with his fear toxin? I now have so much to lose. Apparently I have a family now. The Titans. No. They aren't my family.
"Jason? You okay?"he looked up and saw Dick.
"Yeah, I'm fine," he said as he wiped away the tears.
"Look, you can tell me anything. I'm here for you," Dick said as he sat down next to Jason, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Wally and me. I didn't tell anyone. I just didn't want the Titans to be all about my love life you know. I know that isn't an excuse to keep it from my brother but still... I'm sorry if it somehow made you upset."
I don't think he knows about us. I think we never happened. This still hurts so fucking much, seeing him with someone else. I can't tell him about us. If there was even an us. He seems so...happy with Wally. He died when he was trying to protect the world and his death destroyed Dick. Now he's alive, just like Roy. They're all alive. And if I have to sacrifice my lover for their lives, that's okay. Dick is happy and that's all that matters.
"Sorry," Jason smiled, "I guess I overreacted a little. I just felt like you couldn't trust me."
"No, I didn't mean to make you feel like that. I just... I didn't want the team to know that I'm vulnerable because I'm in love," Dick face turned red, "I'm kind of embarrassed." Dick smiled.
"Love doesn't make you vulnerable, it makes you stronger."
Dick laughed, "Speaking from experience?"
"Yeah, my brother," Jason said. This is killing me. Sometimes if you love someone you need to let them go to be happy.