To Make Her Mine

Eva

I was sitting in the car, Josh was driving. I had almost fainted. I didn't lose my consciousness completely as I could hear Josh and Mia arguing. But my mind was too numb to make any sense.

I kept my eyes closed. When I heard Josh calling my name, I opened my eyes to find him looking at me worried. My head was buzzing with questions. Was he worried about me or that I came to office without prior notice? Did I just walk into something I shouldn't have? I had asked Josh if he had cheated and he had said no. I trusted him. Didn't I?

So what worried me? It clicked me then what if there was something going on in between them? He might not have cheated but I had been away from him for few years, I didn't know if he was involved with Mia? Mia had been his friend since long.  She was always there for him, unlike me. What if I came in middle of something? What if I was the third person?

What if Josh wanted to stay married to me as he felt responsible for me?

"Are you okay Cherry?"

"Ummhmm." I just hummed softly.

"Cherry, I can explain."

"You don't have to Josh."

"Cherry, will you please look at me?"

I didn't want to. I was on the verge of crying. If I looked at him, I would not be able to stop myself. Oh God, please give me strength, I prayed.

Josh placed his hand over my shoulder. Controlling my feelings, I turned my gaze towards him. His face bore expressions of worry and pain. I tried smiling but I couldn't smile.

"Cherry," he said placing his palm over my cheek. His touch felt warm and inviting but was I really going to let him get there again? I put my hand over his and slowly put it away.

"Josh, I'm okay. I'm just tired."

He reluctantly looked away from me. The drive from his office to his Villa was agonising. We didn't talk the whole way after that.

Once we reached, I hurried to open my door before Josh could come and support me. I rushed inside the house. He was coming behind me but he stopped when he realized Mia hadn't yet entered the parking.

I came inside and went straight to my bedroom and then to the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it. I crashed down on the floor. Keeping both hands over my mouth, I let out a cry. It was muffled.

I was breaking down, my heart was churning. I had searing headache again which blinded me. I grasped for air, my chest rising up and down with every strenuous attempt at breath. The headache increased. I clutched my head in both my hands.

It went on for sometime. I couldn't keep on crying. This wasn't me. I wasn't a crybaby. I tried to get up but I didn't have strength. Eve, breath, I said to myself. Gathering all the strength I had, I grabbed hold of washbasin and got up. I opened a cabinet and found pain killers. I took two tablets.

I didn't see my face in the mirror. I was familiar what would stare back at me. That face would be haunting. I started washing my face. The cold water burned my skin but I didn't care. There was a knock at the door.

"Eve," Josh called out.

"Just a minute." I said keeping my voice as normal as I could manage. No more crying Eve.

I grabbed a towel and dried off my face and hands. Going through cabinet again, I took out moisturizer and concealer and applied it to my face. But my eyes looked red. What would I do about it?

I took a deep breath and came out into the bedroom. Josh was sitting on the bed. He looked up as I came out. He smiled at me, I tried smiling again but my face betrayed me.