Archaeology (The Ology Series: Prequel)

9 - Insight into Matt's Mind

((A.N.// Me: Hi! :D So just a couple of things...

1- READ PSYCHOLOGY AND SOCIOLOGY BEFORE THIS ONE SHOT!!!! Seriously! You won't understand otherwise, and there's going to be spoilers!

2- Warning! ANGST! LOTS AND LOTS OF ANGST! DEPRESSION! SWEARING! AND... I need mental help if I'm writing loads of dark fanfictions, don't I? xD

3- This is set during Sociology, before Maddy and her gang appear xD

Um... Oh yeah!

And finally, 4- Songfic! It's based around The Memory by Mayday Parade!

Matt: *sighs* Great... depression...

Mello: *laughs* You're lucky, Matt. She could've done worse.

Matt: Yeah... LIKE SHE'S DOING IN CRIMINOLOGY NOW! *glares*

Me: *awkward laughter* Enjoy guys! xD I don't own the video... or anything actually except my writing style and my version of Sam... xD Also some of the lyrics I'm using as Matt's thought tracking, so when in the middle of a speech

(for example: "Yoghurt and

Brownies

Chocolate brownies!")

It's like... the song, and his thought just put in a different phrase xD If that makes sense...

And some OOC or whatever of Matt in this! I thought of how I would react if I was in his position, and I realised I'd probably be pretty grief stricken and crying... so that's what you guys got! :D))

Matt P.O.V.

She is everywhere I go,

A month. She's been gone a month.

I stared up at the roof of the van from my lying down position on the seats. My hands were behind my head and I swallowed as I remembered the date. Exactly a month. Why did she have to get out of our car? Why'd she have to give herself up? My little sister?

My Sienna... The girl I promised my mum that I'd protect.

Everyone I see,

There was a bang outside of the van and I quickly sat up, looking outside. We'd stopped for a while, and the others were outside making a sort of campfire. Mello said he knew how to make one- I doubted it. I glanced both ways, before my eyes settled on the group. They were sat around a small fire, Mello desperately trying to make it bigger, and for a second... I saw Sam-- Sienna. I saw her sat with the others, laughing and flicking her red hair over her shoulder. Excitement, disbelief and pure happiness filled me and I opened my mouth to shout out to her-

And then I realised it was just Ash as my hallucination faded, revealing her black hair. Disappointment suffocated me, and I slowly laid back down.

Winter's gone and I still can't sleep,

My eyes shut, and I fought back the urge to cry. Sleep deprivation was not good. Making me see things. I really needed sleeping tablets... like I'd get them in the middle of nowhere, and in the middle of an Apocalypse!

Summer's on the way,

At least the heat of summer would be here soon... I thought to myself in a comforting gesture. Maybe the heat would get me to sleep without those dreams. 

At least that's what they say,

At least... that's what I wanted to believe.