Unforgettable Lies

12

Walking away

It's tuesday today at may pasok lunch time ngayon

I'm at the corridor waiting for Aston dahil ang sabi niya ay sabay kaming maglulunch, di pa naman ako masyadong gutom kaya keri ko pa naman maghintay

Kaya ayun habang naghihintay ay kinakalikot ko na muna ang phone ko hindi ako masyadong nag-gagames kaya ayun tamang scroll lang sa facebook

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Pero hindi ko inaasahan ang nakita ko.

Andrea Maniquiz is with Captain Ball Joaquin Villasanta sweetly holding each other hands

Iyan ang nakita kong caption sa itaas ng picture, then another part of me got hit

Namumuo nanaman ang mga luha na pilit kong pinipigilan, tumingin ako sa paligid at nakita kong walang tao mabuti naman, pumasok ako sa Restroom near me to have some privacy.

Fuck! Bakit? Akala ko okay na ko? Pero bakit ang sakit paden? Bakit kumikirot pa den?

That scene was already what? 4 or 5 days ago, I should be okay by now, I should be fine by now but why the hell I am hurting again? Why am I hurt like it was still from yesterday?

The pain was still fresh, The bruise was still alive

And I hate that I am still affected because of this stupid damn feeling!

The whole time I am inside the restroom, I was staring at my phone while letting out all of this goddamn tears stream down in my face

Fuck!

I startled when my phone suddenly ring.

Mateo calling....

Inipon ko muna lahat ng lakas ko para pigilan ang bawat hikbi na posible kong bitawan bago sagutin ang tawag niya

'Mate--'

'Get out of the restroom' putol niya sakin

'Huh?' Nagtataka kong tanong

'Get.the.hell.out.of.that.fucking.restroom' madiin niyang sambit

Natakot ako at mabilis na lumabas

Once I step out of the restroom ay may humila saken at kinulong ako ng mainit na yakap, mas lalong bumuhos ang mga luha ko

Fuck this goddamn tears of mine. Why can't they just stop from falling? I am tired of this all of this! Hindi ko ito planado! Hindi ko planong masaktan at umiyak ng dahil sa lalake LANG! PUTANGINA! kelan ba titigil ang sakit at kirot na ito?! Hanggang kelan?

'Enough crying Mia please nasasaktan na ako' he please

'Mateo ang sakit pa din'nanginginig bawat salitang binibitawan ko

PUTCHA! HINDI KO NA ALAM KUNG PANO AKO ULIT BABANGON MULA SA SAKIT NA NATAMO KO SAKANIYA!

'Time heals Mia I promise you that just please stop crying' he said and hug me tighter