Unforgettable Lies

46

I Miss You

Sa loob ng isang linggo ay hindi na ulit nagpakita pa saakin si Antonio at palaging yung mukha na lang ni Hakkinen, Rayven, Dafhtine at Andrei yung nakikita ko, at sakanila ko lang nalaman na agad na umuwi sa manila si Antonio after giving the boquet of roses

When I heard that I just shrugged and let them talk endlessly, natatawa na lang ako sa mga corny jokes at mga memories na pinapaalala nila mula elemetary and god knows how embarassed I am

After they visit me they bid their goodbyes and tell me that their going back to manila dahil may mga kanya kanya na silang aayusin para sa mga mamanahin nila sa kani-kanilang mga lolo at lola

Tss, buti iyan lang pinoproblema ninyo samantalang ako wasak ang pamilya

I was just staring at the movie I am watching right now but god knows that I didn't understand what I am watching, the whole time I am watching the movie I just realized something

Life is so unfair, you will feel happiness in a short time then the rest was full of surprises it would be pain, anger, hatred and so much more

Fuck life!

I pick up phone beside me and text the person that I am missing right now

Me:
Dad kamusta ka diyan?

Sent.

I waited for a minute until minute turned to hours I give up maybe he is busy, obviously because it's sunday it's his family day with his first and original family

And definitely I can say that the truth is really fucking hurts! Reality really sucks and I hate the fact that I am just bastard in my dad family's eyes

Hinayaan ko na maglandas sa aking pisngi ang mga luha para saan pa at lalabas din naman, iyakin na kung iyakin, nasasaktan ako e wala namang magbabago kung pipigilan ko pa, besides Im free to cry all night wala naman sila nanay at tatay nasa manila si mommy nasa bahay ng asawa niya, yup magmula ng makauwi siya last week ay dun na siya natutulog.

How much pain can I get? Im already immune.

Mapakla akong napatawa at bumangon sa kama para kumuha ng brownies na binili ko kanina sa tindahan I want my comfort food, when I got it I head back to my room and continue watching the movie

Itinuon ko duon sa movie and atensyon para naman kahit papaano ay mawala yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, and I just cried again because of scene, it was the fight scene in the movie titled the amazing spiderman 2, where Gwen Stacy died because Peter Parker didn't save her

And that thought came into my head, sobrang babaw pala talaga ng luha ko kapag hinahayaan ko, again, mapakla akong napatawa sa inaasal ko

Two hours passed when I heard my phone beep, I pick it up and read the text message that was sent by my dad

Naginit agad ang sulok ng mga mata ko ng mabasa ko ang text message ni dad

CommanDad:
Goodevening, Krystal nasa bahay lang ako andito sila lahat ang Ate Miya, Kuya Joseph, Kuya Patrick at ang Ate Johanna mo ikaw na nga lang kulang, anyway, dadating din tayo diyan darling, tomorrow morning I'll be in batangas para magexamine ng mga containers, tsaka na lang reunion natin ha?, I love you po.....