Tangled in South Park

Self-Care

*A Month and a Half Later*

I settle into the booth with Red while Karen and Ashlyn on the other side. Wendy called us all to Tweek Bro's to discuss the Halloween party and our costumes. She picked the perfect day since most of us don't do anything after church but hang out at the coffeehouse anyways.

A lot of time has passed since that night of her sleepover. The break that I decided to take was the best decision I could have made at that time. To understand that I had the power to change what was happening, at least to some extent. I've stopped worrying about getting into arguments with Bebe, and she has actually stopped going after me when we are near each other. I don't know how permanent this change in her will be, but at least my life doesn't feel like hell when I see her. Still, I feel too good without her in my life, so I have stuck with what I have sent in place during this break.

I didn't have to change that much to stay out of Bebe's way. The first day that I sat with the boys during lunch created an uproar from Cartman, but once I explained what was going on, he was actually quite accepting. Red was eventually able to join a couple days each week. At this point, everyone knows how close the two of us are, so it wasn't surprising when she didn't sit with the girls a few days. Gym was a bit more difficult, since I have to see Bebe there, but I don't hold back anymore. I will nail her with a dodgeball, and I don't go easy in whatever sport we are playing. This is the war she wanted, and I am happy to finally let go.

Outside of school was a lot easier. I stopped trying to invite her to whatever hangout that I was getting together, and I just stopped being with the girls group as a whole. I've just been hanging out with the boys like I normally do. Red is almost always by my side unless the girls have something planned. Wendy is a little tougher since she's been in the middle for so long and doesn't want to keep being tugged between two sides. Speaking of Wendy, it took her a few weeks, but she did pull herself together to talk to Bebe. There was crying and yelling, but other than that I don't have much of the details. I can only hope that Bebe will listen to what Wendy said. For now, I'm happy with how life has been going, and I don't think that I will be going back to the way things were. I put up with a lot of shit from the blonde because I love Wendy so much, and I don't want to just throw our friendship away because someone has an issue with me. Still, there's only so much that a girl can take.

"Okay everyone," Wendy calls out. "If you can please take a seat, and then we can start going over everything. Thank you!"

"So, how are you and Wendy doing?" Ashlyn looks over at me.

I chuckle, "You say it like we are a couple going through a rough patch. I'm just keeping my distance so Bebe will stop being a fucking child, and maybe I can hang out with all of them again. Wendy and I are fine. She's in the toughest spot. Having to talk to a girl that she's been friends with her whole life about the way she treats me must have been a tough conversation, and it isn't over yet."

"Do you think Bebe is going to change?" Karen asks, leaning towards me.

I softly smile, "I'm not really sure, Pumpkin. She seems quite stubborn from the interactions that I have had with her, but I do think it is possible for her to understand that she's fucked up just like I have. I haven't given her much thought for a while. All I ask for is an apology, and for her to actually mean it. Now, moving on, I would rather go back to when we never talked about her."

"You've figured out your costumes, yeah?" Red easily brings us to a happier topic. "I've spent so long on this years costume, and I am so excited to see what everyone has decided on."

"This is going to be a kickass Halloween, I can already feel it," Ashlyn chuckles. "I think everyone is going to go all out since we are doing competitions. This isn't just for fun anymore."