Last Secret

I have to tell him!

Quirin's P.O.V.

It is noon. The village doesn't need anything and my work is over. Varian is in some kind of undergrownd chamber to focuse on one of his projects. So I'm alone at home.

I just sat behind the table in the dinning room and get lost in thoughts.

I know I have to tell him, but I can't. I was making excuses since I got out of amber. For 8 month!

At first I kept telling myself that Varian will break. Then I said he has to focuse on saving our kingdom. When it was all over I said:"Oh, come on! He just got happiness back! Give him some time to enjoy it!".

But I know deep down, that it was all because I'm afraid of loosing him. I wanted to give myself some time.

But I can't do this any more! Varian isn't a kid! He is 17! He diserves to know.

And her voice... It just keep echoing in my head.

-Protect them. Protect them, Quirin. You can do it.

And her eyes... Her deep, bright, green eyes, when she was in bed, fighting death. Those eyes were begging me! Oh, how did I let her down...

She always was there for me...

She always made me smile...

She was a great woman, wife and... mother...

After everything she had done for me, I couldn't even do one thing she asked me! The last thing she asked me...

(Flash back)

"But Quirin, you will make a great father!" said a woman with bright green eyes and red hair, wich was up in a bun. My Rosalin...

"But Rose, I'm not the Dad type! I'm too hard!"

-"Who said that?! You are such an amuzing man!"

And then she smiled. A kind and playfull smile. I knew what that smile ment. She had a plan to convince me.

-"Quirin, just close your eyes and dream of it! That how happy life will be when we have children!"

-"Children?! How many do you want?"

-"At least two." She answered calmly.

"Two?! At least?!?" I asked shoked. She smiled again an continued:

-"Just think of it! Our first child will be a boy. He will grow up and when he've learned to walk, he would run around the house and it will make you crazy! Then, when he is still a toddler, we will be blessed by a baby girl! She will learn to talk and would sing for us all day! We will raise them with love! Our son will help you in your duties as the leader of old corona and our daughter will help me in the house!

We will end up with a charming, strong prince and a kind, beutifull princess."

She said the last part so nice. It was like she was chanting!

I smiled at her and playfully asked:" Will they be dreamers like thier mother?"

She giggled. A little, kind, cute giggle. I would give up everything for her giggles.

-"Yeah, I think they will."

And with that, she hugged me and whispered:"We will be Great parents."

I hugged her back, allowing myself to drown in her warmth with a smile on my face.

(End of flash back)

They are tears running down my face.

I miss her...

I miss her warmth...

I miss her giggles...

Varian has got his giggles from her.

I stand up and whiped my tears off. I have to tell him!

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Hi! I just got the idea today and I wrot it. It was so soon. I really don't think I can do it this often.
I hope you've enjoyed it!
Bye!