A little bit of love (boy x boy)

Chap 14. The memory that hurts

  Lucas woke up in a shivering mess. He was sweating profusely and his breathing was rage.

  The door of his bedroom and the shameful boy opens the door. ' Hey.....How are you doing? ' He ask. Lucas stares at Luke in pure horror and fear. He immediately curl up into a defensive position in his bed and screams at his brother. ' NO NO NO!!! GET AWAY FROM ME!!!! LEAVE!!!! GET OUT!!!! ' 

  Lucas kept yelling and grabbing a handful of anything he could grasp and throw it at the male standing my the door. Luke uses the door as his shield. He didn't shout nor did he scolded back. It was indeed his fault anyway. 

  After a while, Lucas finally stop. Not because he doesn't want to, it's because his throat was too hoarse and continuing will surely damaged his vocal cords. He lays down on the bed again, feeling weak and worthless. The useless tears flows down his cheeks and he did nothing to stop them. 

  ' I'll..... be downstairs....if you need me. ' Luke said, barely audible and closes the door softly. Lucas instantly got up, grab the bottle of water on his table side and drinks it down greedily. In just gulp, the water was finished. Lucas crushed it with his hands it and anger and threw it on the ground harshly. 

  Laying back down on the bed and screaming into his almost - torn - open - pillow. ' I HATE HIM!!! I FUCKING HATE HIM!!! YOU ARE DEAD LUKE!!!!! I WILL KILL YOU!!!! I WILL ...... I could never hate you...... ' Lucas whisper out the last part with a raspy voice. 

  That's it. The boy finally admits it. He could never hurt his brother. Not now and probably never would. He is his family. The only person who at least, sometimes treats him like a real person. There's no one else for me. Not dad and definitely not mum. 

  Suddenly, he face up the ceiling again. Staring at the dark blue paint with glow - in - the - dark stars stickers paste all over it, he couldn't help but burst into pathetic tears when he remember a certain sweet yet ...... sad memory. 

  Flashback ~~ 

  ' And so the princess lives happily ever after in the palace with her beloved prince. The end. ' A sweet melodic voice says. A mother's voice. 

  The young child, no bigger than 6 was cuddled in the mother's protective arms. The boy looks up at his mum with bright brown eyes that reflects pure innocent and childlike. ' Will I live happily ever after too mum? '  He ask cutely.

  The mother gives him a gentle smile and cradles him. ' Oh honey. I couldn't answer you that. You'll have to find that yourself. But I'm sure you will find your beautiful princess and have a wonderful life. ' 

  ' In the palace? ' The child ask childishly. The mum chuckles merrily. ' Yes baby. In your very own palace. In here. ' she points her index finger at the boy's heart. ' Remember this sweetie, happiness can be achieve. Sometimes, it's not easy. But you don't give up just yet. In the end, you'll find that all is worth it. You and your brother are the greatest joy in my entire life. ' 

  She lower her body and gave her baby boy a little peck on the forehead and touch his chubby cheeks lovingly. ' Now, you mister. Have to go to bed. '  She pries herself off the boy's unwilling strong grip and laughs as he pouts adoringly.

  She places the book on the shelve carefully and walks over the door. The mother looks back again at his son and smile. ' Sleep tight and have sweet dreams sweetie. Don't give up running when the monsters chase you. ' 

  The boy whines ' Mum! '  and covers up himself with his blanket that acts like a shelter to him. she laughs at his actions and shakes her head a little. ' Goodnight. ' she whisper. ' Goodnight mum. ' The little boy answers.