All I Ever Wanted (DISCONTINUED)

Am I Dreaming?

Tw cuts/scars
Romans POV

I don't know what I had been thinking when I had kissed Virgil.
Maybe I just wanted him to know how I felt.
Maybe I just needed him.
Maybe I gave up with pretending we were enemies, or even friends.
I couldn't tell you. I simply had no idea.
I merely kissed him, and was very confused afterwards.
Dang, I must've hung out with Logan one too many times again...
Anyway, when we had walked into the kitchen and Patton's eyes had lit up, I knew that I shouldn't have grabbed Virgils hand, since I doubted that he wanted everyone to know that we were...
Well, we weren't dating, so I wasn't quite sure what to call it.
Maybe I could talk to Virge about that later.
Then, all of a sudden, he dropped the bomb.
"Guys, guys... we're not dating... we just... both like each other more than friends do, and we know it... and, fine..." Virge said.
"Huh? We're dating, Virge?" I asked, excitement colouring my tone.
"Well, yeah, sorta..." Virge said, "but if you're not up for it, I'm fine!"
"Virgil, I would love that!" I said, resisting the urge to kiss him again.
"Really?" Virgil asked, surprised.
"Yeah, of course!" I said, super happy.
"Now, why don't we eat, before it gets cold?" Patton suggested.
We all sat down, Patton and Logan sitting next to each other, and me and Virgil sitting next to each other.
If you asked me today, I couldn't honestly tell you what we had been eating. I was too busy thinking about what Virge had just said. I'm dating the best emo ever! I kept thinking. Can you tell I loved Virge?
After we had finished, it was my turn to do the dishes, so I grabbed the plates. As I piled them and started the water, Virgil appeared silently and grabbed a dish towel.
We worked in silence, not talking whatsoever. It wasn't awkward, either. Well, maybe a little. But mostly, it was calming and made doing the dishes a lot better.
After we finished, as I turned to go to my room, Virgil grabbed my hand, dragging me with him. I blushed, but went along with it. He didn't look at me at all after he started dragging me.
After we got into his room, he let go of my hand, and walked over to his bed.
"So... you're really okay with dating me? I'm not really... what seems to be your type..." Always with him and the downgrading himself.
"I swear, it's fine, Vi!" I said.
"Vi?" Virge asked.
"Well... yeah, I decided to give you a new nickname, my creepy cookie!" As I said that, he blushed and looked away.
"Well... I guess I like it..." he admitted.
"Good, because that's your new nickname, J.D-elightful." I couldn't stop.
He smiled. "Well, at least you're keeping your old nicknames, otherwise I'd think that this was Remus, or maybe even Deceit..." he said the names with a loathing. Obviously, he hated them.
"Of course I'll keep my old nicknames, Dr. Gloom! How could I not?" I slowly started walking closer, not wanting to freak him out.
"Well, I suppose that's true..." he muttered, then he shyly moved closer, grabbing my hand again, and having me sit next to him.
I blushed. "But the better question is..." he looked at me quizzically. "Are you comfortable with this, Vi?"
"Well, it was my idea... and, well... you heard what I said to Patton... so... yeah, I kinda am, Princey." Vi explained.
I grabbed his hand, just holding it. He didn't pull away, but I think he was blushing... it was hard to tell underneath his bangs.
"Good." There was nothing more to say. It was good, cause otherwise... I don't think I'd be good... I might've continued... you know what? It's not important.
"It's in the past, Roman, you'll be fine!" I assured myself, but I didn't realize I was speaking out loud.
"What was that, Ro?" I like that nickname, but...
"Oh, uh... nothing! I swear!" But he wasn't going to be fooled that easily, because he was Virgil and wasn't stupid.
"Really, Roman, you can tell me!" Well, we had known each other for awhile, even if he was a Dark Side, and I wasn't.
"Well... you see... I trust you, so I'll show you..." I slowly pulled up my sleeve, while he looked at me quizzically again.
"Roman... what is it?" I licked my thumb, and wiped away the makeup.
"Oh, Princey..." Vi said, examining the one scar I had uncovered. "Why?"
"Just wait..." I muttered, uncovering more of them, crisscrossing over my arm (if y'all read twilight, or watched, think Jasper with all the bites on his arm).
"Oh... Roman, why did you..." Well, there was no reason to lie now.
"Well... being Creativity, it's not all sunshine's and rainbows... I'm not Patton! It's more like... well, I'm not Remus, but it's not all light... sometimes it's dark, and I wasn't sure how to deal it, so I started... yeah..."
"But Roman, you can talk to all of us! Even if this was before you trusted me, there was still Patton and Logan!" He was practically yelling now, obviously angry.
"Well, Vi, I couldn't talked to Logan, because this obviously had to do with feelings. And Patton would have had a heart attack... so, I couldn't have talked to anyone!"
"Ok... but you still had Remus... wait, never mind, it's Remus, never trust him!" Vi said, obviously trying to lighten the mood.
"Heh, yeah, I guess." I said.
"So... Roman, just please... don't do it again!"
"I won't, I promise, Vi..." I said, covering my arm with my sleeve again. "But, if I do it without thinking..."
"I'll stop you, I promise." Vi promised.
"But how would you know? I always go into the bathroom, in my room... and you've never been in there..."
"Well..." he smirked. "I suppose that means that you'll be stuck with me for awhile."
I pulled him closer. "I don't mind, and I'd prefer forever rather than awhile" I smiled as he moved back, blushing.
"Well..." I looked at him. "I wouldn't entirely mind that either..."

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