Alone for so Long.

Chapter 35: Water

We walk back to my house. I fiddle with my hands nervously. I don't want to jump into the freezing water! I could drown!

"What are you thinking about?" Troy says with a smirk.

"What do you think I'm thinking about?" I snap.

I look up at him and see sadness.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I'm just scared to jump into the water," I explain.

I wrap my arms around his neck and make him stop walking.

"It's okay. I understand, but a bet is bet," He said.

He pecks my lips. We hold hands until we reach my house.

"Um what if I said that I don't have a bathing suit?" I say quietly.

"You can wear on of Bea's swimsuits!" He suggest.

A wave of tiredness overcomes me. I yawn.

"Troy? Can we do this tomorrow?" I ask.

Troy looked at me.

"I guess," He said.

We walk into my house. As we walk into the kitchen and see that there are no lights on. My mom must have gone to bed. We grab two waters and walk upstairs. We walk into my room and lay on the bed. I lay my head on his chest and he places on of his hands on my waist. My eyes start to get heavy but I'm not comfortable.

"I'm going to put my pj's on." I say and get up from the bed.

"Okay. I'll do the same." Troy replies and jumps into his room.

I grab my sweatpants and a large shirt. I walk into my bathroom. Wow it feels different knowing that Bea isn't here to ruin my life. I strip out of my 'party' clothes and wash my make-up off. I put on my baggy sweatpants and soft shirt. It's short sleeve. I look into the mirror and pull my hair into a messy bun.

I look down at my hands. My eyes glance up to my wrist. Dreadful memories overcome my mind. I see scars on my wrist. Tears flood my eyes. I wish I never would have cut myself. It felt so right at the time. I get the tears out of my eyes and make sure that I look like I hadn't cried. I don't want Troy to know.

I walk back into my room and see Troy on my bed starring at his phone. I hop onto the bed beside him.

"Do you have any social media accounts?" I ask.

"I do. I have Instagram." He said.

"Can I see it?" I ask.

He nods.

I get closer to Troy so I can see his phone screen. He shows me his profile. His bio shows that he's taken. I blush at that. He scrolls down his photos. It shows me and him taking pictures.

"I never knew that you had me on this!" I say.

"Of course you are. I want everyone who is following me to know that I have the most beautiful girlfriend ever." He said and kisses my cheek.

"You should get an Instagram." He suggests.

"Okay!" I say.

I grab my phone off of my desk. I download the app with Troy's help.

"What should my username be?" I ask.

"Underscore, Carolina, underscore." He said.

I nod and type it in. Good thing no one used that one. I make Troy turn away while I type in my password.

"You should get some sleep. You have a big day tomorrow!" Troy says.

"Fine. Give me a shout out tomorrow so people can follow me." I say.

We peck each-other of the lips. I wait for Troy and safely get back into his room. I turn off my lights and fall into dreamful night about Troy and I.

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I wake up next morning to see a giant face. I scream and jump back into my bed. Troy falls onto my bed gripping his stomach as he's laughing.

"That was not funny at all!" I yell.

"Oh but it was!" Troy says as he is laughing.

"Ready for the big day? You should do it know so you can get it over with." He suggests.

I look over to my clock and see it's noon. I never slept in that late before.

"Let me go get changed." I say.

"I'll be here." He said.

I walk into Bea's room and search for the bathing suits. I finally found them in the back of the closet. They are in a giant bag. I dump them all over the floor. I search for an one piece. I don't see one. Of course! I finally pick out a light blue bikini.

I run into my bathroom and change. I never wore a bikini before. I look at my self. I brush my hair out and tie it into a side braid. I can't believe I'm doing this. It's December!

I walk cautiously into my room. I try to cover my body in some way.

I look up at Troy.

"Wow." He whispers.

I blush.

"Are you ready?" He asked me. His eyes wouldn't leave me. It's like if he looked away, I would dissapear.

"I guess." I say as I put a sweatshirt and pants on.

We walk down stairs and out the door. My mom is at work, so I don't have to text her. We walk to a lake down the road from the house. Once we get there, my heart beat starts to accelerate. I'm not ready to do this.

"I'll get sick!." I say to him.

"No you won't. You'll jump in and come right out." He said.

I decide to just get it over with. I take off my sweatshirt and pants. I'm left with the bikini. To be honest it isn't even that cold out!

"Okay go run in!" Troy shouts.

I run into the water. I dive into it. Water surrounds me. Icy, cold, water. It takes me a minute to respond to the coldest. I shoot up to reach air. I gasp for air. The water wraps around me. I quickly run out of the water. I sprint to Troy and hug him. I jump up and straddle him.

"I'm-I'm-I'm-freezing." I say through my chattering teeth.

He slipes on my sweatshit over my head. I get down and he helps me put on my sweatpants.

Warmth comes throught my body.

"Thank you." I say breathless.

"You have to see this!" Troy says looking at his phone.

I look down see something crazy!

Author comments.

I did post today like I said! I'll try my hardest to update tomorrow but if I don't Merry Christmas !!