I'M YOUR BOY_ Jonghyun (on Going)

Ch 40. Diphylleia grayi

You kept counting the distant stars, you were already holding the brightest in your hand.

Weakest physical presence masks the strongest reality that's not tangible. You chose to get swayed by the immoral wind, you chose to forget.

You peeked into my soul, gave me my color, you wrote my stories for me. You made me feel important, needed, loved.

Things were working, But then why did you deviate on your way home?  All the work we both put in to comfort each other, it all become useless. Can't you tell me why? Do i not deserve an explanation?

Was i too much of a burden? Was the path to me too bothersome? Did i make you feel lonely and insecure? Did you really have to give up on me permanently in lieu of temporary exhaustion?

It was all my fault to begin with though. I know it's all my fault. Now that we've both lost the meaning to our existence, it's not helping even when i am taking all the blame.

Everything is falling apart. I keep making more mistakes in my guilt to not have been able to save our happiness in this world. If i breathe by myself now, i feel ungrateful towards all your efforts that caused you suffering in order to preserve me peace. If i cry out loud, it's like asking for death without paying for my sins. That's not how it's going to end sire. I'll accept the pain i deserve until you're ready to forgive me. I won't let go hope of a peaceful eternity with you no matter what anybody has to say.

My persistence lightens the path to your love and sincerity so i don't get lost on the road.

Thank you for your hard work. Stay strong. What happened, happened.Don't give up on me this time oi. Wait for me. I'll do the same for you as well. From one angel to another, it's a promise  of eternal friendship and support ヘ(^_^)ヘ