Eighteen

Rebellious Enough

(A/N IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG OMG BUT I WAS GROUNDED ON CHRISTMAS LOL AND IM ON VACATION SO THIS TOOK FOREVER BUT ITS A REALLY LONG CHAPTER SO ENJOY BC ITS BASICALLY LIKE TWO CHAPTERS AND GET READY FOR A MURDERER wait what

OH YEAH AND THE PICTURE IS MY CONVO WITH CASEY BC I SENT HER THE CHAPTER AND SHE TOOK FOREVER TO RESPOND SO UM YEAH WHEN SOMEONE DOESNT RESPOND JUST GO AHEAD AND SPAM THEM YUP)

It had been about a week and a half since the whole thing with Harry and Louis happened. Harry and I have hung out every day since, with Louis texting me repeatedly. I decided to block him. Is that bad?

I know he's my boyfriend and everything, but I just feel hatred towards him. Not because of how he talked to me, but because of how he talked to Harry. Why am I getting so defensive over him?

Because you have feelings for him.

Stupid sub conscience. Of course I don't have feelings for him. I have a boyfriend. I don't feel anything for him.

Christmas came and went. Usually Louis and I would have our Christmas together at my house, with us opening presents and eating Christmas cookies. This year he just sent his present on my front porch. I didn't even give him a present.

Speaking of presents, Harry came to our Christmas Eve Party (which Louis wasn't invited to) and gave me a gorgeous charm bracelet. There were three charms- a piano, for when he showed me his music room, a microphone, an inside joke about how I don't speak loud enough, and a silver heart. I'm just going to pretend that I don't know what the silver heart means. It could mean many things, so I try not to think about the one meaning my sub conscience keeps telling me.

I feel like I should invite Louis to the New Years Eve party tonight. He is my boyfriend, after all. Plus, what about the new years kiss? We've always shared our new years kiss together. I decided to unblock his number.

Me- Hey. R u coming to the party to tonight?
Louis- ur joking, right?
Me- Uh, no. We've always done New Years Eve at my house.
Louis- How stupid are u? do u know how much time I spent texting you all of those texts? how much time I spent calling you? I finally decided to give up. I thought u dumped me for fucks sake! and now you want me to go to your idiotic party? how about no.
Me- Fine, i'll invite Harry :)
Louis- I'll be there at seven.

Ha, if he thought I wasn't inviting Harry, he was in for a surprise.

Me- Plans for tonight?
Harry- Sitting around eating with the family and seeing if anyone is rebellious enough to set off illegal fireworks.
Me- So basically nothing?
Harry- Pretty much, yeah.
Me- My family has a huge NYE party every year... And I was hoping, if you weren't busy being forever alone, that you could maybe come to the party for a little bit.
Harry- Is he going to be there?
Me- who?
Harry- Louis
Me- Uh, yeah.. But he wont mess with you, promise. Anddd, we are rebellious.
Harry- Rebellious enough to use illegal fireworks?
Me- You bet.
Harry- What time is this party?
Me- Starts at eight, but you should come at five :)
Harry- Count me in, love.

I glanced at the clock.
4:15
I had 45 minutes to get ready for the party. Not only did I have to get myself ready, but also the house. It was clean, but needed to be decorated.

I walked to my room and picked out a gold dress from my closet. I then picked out my undergarments and a speaker to listen to music, and walked to the bathroom. I turned on the hot water, letting it warm up before placing both feet in the shower and letting the hot water run down my back. I grab the shampoo and slowly massage it into my scalp.