A Thousand Times by E Janetulip

Chapter 13 (Editing)

"Don't go breaking my heart, don't go. 조각난 세상 잊혀진 둘의 일기 속, 데려가 줘 그 비밀로 [Fragmented world in the forgotten diary of the two, take me with that secret]."

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What would've happened to me if I didn't meet you? I can't and I don't even want to imagine.

-Aurora (오로라)

2016. 08. 26.

It's been a month and two weeks since he and I started dating. Everything went back to normal after I confessed. I can finally do anything without being cautious of what I do whenever he's around. The first semester already ended and now we are starting the second semester. It's almost autumn. Who knew time would pass by so quickly?

In a month and two weeks, a lot of things happened. During our semestrial break, us three, San, Seonghwa, and I, we were hanging out almost every day. All three of us are now going to school and going home together except for my best friend on Wednesday and Friday. We often go to other places after school ends and eat lunch together during school days and sometimes during the weekend if we decided to meet each other.

San and Seonghwa have gotten closer after we always hang out. They sometimes even go out without me. The first week we hang out, San complained about being the third wheel when he's with the two of us, but now that they have gotten closer, instead of him being the third wheel, I sometimes end up feeling like a third wheel just to tease me.

With Seonghwa and I, everything is going smoothly. For the first time we went out being together, we went to go see a movie and had dinner right after. It was fun, the movie was great and the foods were amazing. I could eat it all for the rest of my life and I wouldn't complain. It was the best meal I've ever had.

I remember what he had told me that night. I don't think I'll forget it any time soon. It still makes me have butterflies in my stomach whenever it crosses my mind.

We were waiting for our bill when I told him what I wanted for us to happen.

"우리의 앞으로의 여정이 모두 장밋빛이었으면 좋겠다 [I hope our journey ahead is all rosy]."

He grabbed my hand in his not leaving his eyes on me, "네가 나와 함께 그 여행을 할 수 있도록 내가 보장할게 [I will ensure you have that journey with me]." He gave me my hand a tight squeeze before saying another thing, "언제나 (eonjena)."

Seonghwa, he really knows how to make my heart flutter. He knows how to make my stomach do some back flips.

After eating dinner we stayed in the restaurant for a while and continued talking. We were so full that I felt like my stomach would explode. The guy I was with kept making me laugh and it didn't help. It made my stomach hurt even more.

Once we noticed the clock already strike at 7:30 we decided to walk back home and Seonghwa insisted to drop me off our house. I told him not to but he declined.

Entering the building we went towards the elevator. Seconds from entering the elevator we heard a sound from the elevator as the door of it opened, indicating we were already on the seventh floor.

We stepped out of the elevator and a few walks from that is our house. We finally arrived in front of our front door.

Before he left, I held his hands, "너와 함께, 나는 오늘 밤 즐거웠어 (Neowa hamkke, naneun oneul bam jeulgeowossda)," telling I had fun tonight with him while looking directly in his eyes.

He smiled at me and I returned the smile at him when he told me he had fun too. He opened his arms and without hesitating, I closed the gap between us, wrapping my arms around him. Welcoming the scent of his perfume to fill my nose. The woody scent, I always want close to me.

A smile lingered on my face while I was snuggling towards his embrace. His presence alone can make me smile, how much more if I'm close to him and in his arms. This guy makes me happy. I sometimes wonder how can a person make someone be this happier.

We pulled away from the hug, our eyes not leaving each other's eyes. I started feeling my face heating up and making me break our eye contact when I looked down, trying to avoid him see me blush. I heard a chuckle from the guy in front of me. I rolled my eyes knowing he noticed my face turning red. From how many times we spend time with each other, I still haven't got used to him making me feel embarrassed whenever I blush.

Placing his hands on the side of my head pulling me close to him, I felt a kiss on my forehead followed by a pat on my head and him saying his goodbye at me. Surprised from the action I looked up and turned my head to see him already walking towards the elevator. He sent me a smile one last time as I waved my hand at him before the door of the elevator fully closed.

I'm glad I started liking him because as I remember when I first met him, I didn't even like him at all. He was like the guy I would only talk to if I needed to. Imagine not having him, not knowing Seonghwa that I know now, and having him as just one of my classmates. My heart hurts thinking about what-ifs because if I look back, it was possible. He could just be one of my classmates in high school that I would likely forget. I mean, how did I start liking him when I don't like him at all from the start? We don't often realize life is full of surprises when we don't look closely.