Beat the Odds

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HANNAH(POV)

I was now sitting in the bed eating homemade vanilla ice cream that I dragged myself out of bed to make. This was my life right now. I've been depressed and sad lately. The day I seen my mom and sister in the store I kind of felt betrayed. I wanted answers so bad I worked up the courage to meet up with her to get them a couple days after.

*flashback*

"Hey lets get straight to it since I'm only allowed 10 minutes with you. Growing up as a kid you always seen me and your dad as a happy couple. Caring, loving, and independent but in reality that was not the case,"she said. "Since I've been with you father I have been getting beat on and cheated on for the simple fact that I didn't want you to be raised the way he wanted you too be. My family was kind hearted loved people for who they are and on his behalf his family is evil and racist. This the main reason to why I opened up you a back account at the age 2. I remember when you were 4 and you'll get your allowance and you would run too me saying "mommy mommy I want put my money in the big safe" she said wiping a tear. "This is why I raised you to be independent and it paid off. I couldn't just up and leave him he made the most money I needed to be there to take care of you or else you would've been taken away. If I left he said he would kill me and you and blame it on my medication I took for depression. You didn't know that I was on medication and I didn't want you too find out either. He drove me into a mental breakdown but I tried to stay strong around you for you. I'm so sorry that I never reached out too you like I said I would. It makes me feel less than a mother,"she said crying.

I sat there with tears rolling down my face because most of the things she was saying I felt like it was true. I could feel it that she was sincere and wanted to be there but couldn't. I'm not saying that it was right for her to stay away but it's complicated.

"I did what was best for you forget about me,"she said.

"Okay mom I understand I really do still doesn't give you the right to stay away from me. Your daughter your babygirl. I'm not even your babygirl anymore you allowed him to name your daughter after me to take my spot. I don't know how I'll be able to forgive you for that but as of right now I just need to go this is too much for me,"I said standing up and walking out the door.

That day right there sent me into a place I wouldn't want too be. I was mad about her not coming to see me or check on me but once I found out that her daughter well my sister was named after me that drew the line. I know I'm grown now and that shouldn't bother me but it does it may be little to a lot of people but it's a big deal for me.

I sat in bed eating ice cream and vanilla Oreos as I watched lifetime. A good lifetime movie and snacks when you're down is the best way to go. I haven't heard from May and I should be there for her but it's like my mind is telling me no.

I made myself get up from bed and walk downstairs to make myself more ice cream but there was a knock on the door. I wondered who it could be considering that Toosii May and Damion is the only one who knows where I stay. Maybe they are coming to check on me I said too myself.

I walked over to the door and opened it too see a man in all black charge towards me as I tried to fight him off.

He grabbed me by my hair and dragged me across the living room floor. I kicked and screamed as I tried to get away hoping that someone would hear me but I doubted it the way my house is set up.

"Let me go please I'll give you money if it's what you want,"I said as I cried.

He dragged me up the stairs like a was a rag doll the shit hurt my back so bad. He opened my room door and tossed me on the bed while pulling out his gun. I have a California king size bed so I went to the corner of the bed and sat there while begging and crying asking him not too kill me.